CHAPTER ONE

             Home.

            The ranch, in all its sprawled, rustic glory, again felt like home. It was how it sat in his heart and the resulting warmth which managed to thaw his soul that wrapped Chris Larabee in a blanket of serenity. All of that emanated from one too-thin essence forever branded on his heart as his son, Vin Tanner. Vin was home. Vin made it home.

            Soft breathing called for Chris' stiff fingers to absently stroke through his boy's soft hair as Vin slept, deeply, at his side. Morning light trickled through the slight gap in the bedroom curtains spilling a line of gold across the floor and Chris' chest, and would streak right across Vin's relaxed face if Chris hadn't rolled on his side just enough to block the intrusion. Vin's breath warmed Chris' chest as he gazed down at the beautiful sight of his son sleeping deep and sound - a rarity in the past weeks. Since his return, Vin's nights - and therefore Chris' nights - were usually wracked with nightmares and troubled snatches of sleep resulting from exhaustion.

            This was a breakthrough of sorts, sleeping one whole night through. Chris raised his hand and examined his healed knuckles which were still a little pink, but no longer bruised from his fight to protect his family. He wiggled them and returned his hand to Vin's hair, sighing contentedly as he carded through the fine waves.

            Cheery bird call and faint dog barking outside added to the serene moment  as he relaxed, head propped up on up bent arm. Even the knowledge that there were horses to feed and chores to attend to didn't penetrate his inner calm. Chris knew this was only one tiny step in a convoluted journey ahead - there were still the items of school, work and family to deal with as well as getting Vin to sleep a night through in his own bed. But for now, this was enough. The world could pause at this moment for infinity and he'd be a happy man.

            A soft snick alerted Chris to his opening bedroom door and he shifted his eyes, continuing the soothing rhythm of his stroking fingers. Vin didn't even twitch at the sound. Another tiny victory. Buck Wilmington's stupidly grinning face hovered in the narrow opening.

            "Stay put," Buck whispered. "Everything's taken care of."

            Motion below his roommate's floating head drew Chris' gaze downward where  JD's face pushed into view. One of Buck's wide hands ruffled the boy's dark hair. Miraculously, JD remained silent as his face softened with obvious relief.

            "Come on," Buck said quietly to his son. JD tilted his head up and broke into a smile as his Da physically turned his head toward the hall in a motion akin to opening a jar. "Let's leave 'em be."  Buck mouthed "Later" to Chris just before the door clicked closed.

            Contentment settled on the room once again as a horse's distant whinny drifted through the open window and Chris sighed, allowing his mind to wander. With sleep, his thoughts were now clear and the mental list he assembled didn't seem as daunting in the quiet of a new day.

            Today was Friday. Tomorrow his parents arrived, unwilling to stay away any longer. Matt and Claire Larabee were in constant touch, speaking to Vin and JD daily on the telephone and long-distant spoiling the boys with frequent gifts in the mail. Hindsight allowed Chris to admit it was a good thing after all – hopefully as a result, Vin wouldn't be as rattled when they actually arrived. All in all Vin's fragile demeanor had diminished considerably; he no longer jumped when unexpectedly touched or startled at loud noised or raised voices.

            Monday, Chris returned to work, half-days. Matt and Claire would stay with Vin during the day while JD finished out the year at school in a mere two weeks. Vin was to be tested on Thursday to see where he should be placed in the summer session; Chris reminded himself to thank Ezra for all the after work tutoring these past weeks. Everyone was a bit surprised at how well Vin did during those sessions. He’d said that Grace Giltner was a teacher at one time and spent a lot of time educating her partner in captivity; it was the only thing the boy willingly spoke of regarding his two years away. If Miss Grace, as Vin called her, hadn't become a doomed addict after the death of her own son years ago, she may have been able to make it in the world. Instead, her only legacy was bringing Vin up to grade level for the first time in his short life.  Chris was grudgingly grateful to have one positive thing in the whole ordeal.

            Chris didn't think beyond the coming week as he gazed at his slumbering son. Vin sighed and Chris knew his boy was slowly awakening. He watched, smiling, as Vin's forehead subtly creased and his eyes rolled beneath pale lids just before fluttering in wakefulness. A small hand groggily freed itself from the tangle of sheets and rubbed at his nose and then he took a deep breath and blinked lazily, eyes momentarily unfocused.

            "Good mornin', Cowboy," Chris greeted. He brushed soft curls from Vin's cheek. "Hungry?"

            Vin's eyes rolled to meet Chris' and he smiled and nodded. "Yeah," he croaked as he sat up. He bit his lower lip and looked at his father's face through long lashes when he realized where he was.

            "I brought you in here after you fell asleep on the couch," Chris explained. "Was easier than the top bunk. You're gettin' heavy." Vin smiled sheepishly and Chris ruffled his hair. "Comon', let's eat."

            The pair rounded up their slippers and robes and visited the bathroom before heading to the kitchen.

            “Where’s Buck ‘n JD?” Vin asked, rubbing an eye.

            “Shopping. We got visitors tomorrow, remember?” Chris grinned, pleased at the thoughtful look on Vin’s face. Two weeks ago, there would have been an expression of fear. He pulled a frying pan from the cupboard. “We'll clean up around here a little then there's a special assignment to complete.”

            Vin paused, a shadow of uncertainty clouding his features. “’K,” Vin breathed as he slowly climbed onto a chair. Chris took a moment pour some orange juice before reassuring him with a quick ruffle of hair.

            "Don't worry. You're coming with me and won't regret it. Trust me." Chris felt a surge of joy that his simple words were enough for Vin when his worried features melted away and were instantly replaced with a bright smile. Chris chuckled and returned to the stove while Vin finished his juice.

             "Should I clean our room before we go?" 

            Chris could feel the return of the wary undertone at the reminder of visitors - he didn't do well with any kind of change and it was the last vestige of their ordeal that only Chris seemed to notice. Both Buck and Dr. Will seemed confidant with Vin’s progress, Chris felt that there was something else, something unspoken. He heard it in Vin’s voice and saw it in his actions. Chris couldn’t put his finger on it, exactly, and hadn’t mentioned it because describing it would be impossible. It was part of that invisible bond they had and it kept him from being completely satisfied with Vin’s progress. "That would be great. JD can do the rest, then."

            Vin nodded and smiled. He was back in balance for the moment.

            Scrambled egg and sausage burritos were assembled and eaten mostly in the comfortable quiet Vin and Chris relished.  When the dishes were done they headed to their respective rooms to clean. When Chris was done he helped Vin finish up and then challenged him to a race to get dressed.

             Vin dashed into Chris’ room minutes later. “I win!” he announced, jumping onto the bed where Chris sat to pull on his socks.

            “Not fair!” Chris chided. “Your shoes aren’t tied!”

            Vin started working his laces while lying on his back with his feet in the air. Chris quickly put on his socks and then stepped in his boots, purposely fumbling.

            “Done!” Vin yelled a fraction of a second before Chris.

            “Beat me fair ‘n square.”

            “I get ta pick lunch,” Vin said with satisfaction.

            “Hold on a second. We didn’t agree to that.” Chris stood, grabbed Vin’s ankles and dragged him to the edge of the bed. Giggling, the boy reached up expectantly. Chris pulled him onto his hip and gave him a quick hug. Vin looked at him with those huge blue eyes reflecting contentment, a hand on each of Chris’ shoulders and an expectant expression.  “But I'll go along with it this time.”

            Vin nodded sharply. "All right, then," he said seriously.

            Chris coughed a short laugh at the dead-on impersonation of himself and Vin grinned mischievously. Chris' heart skipped a beat at the thrill of seeing that sparkle once again. After another quick hug Chris released him and they headed to the door. Their escape, however, was delayed at the return of JD and Buck. All activity focused on unloading groceries.

            Chris held up a predominantly purple box and scowled. “My mom’s gonna love this,” he muttered at the box of BooBerry cereal.

            Buck laughed. “One look at those purple tongues will change her mind. She’s mush in these boys’ hands and you know it.”

            Chris snorted as he reluctantly put the box away. “Okay, Vin and I will be back in awhile. Vin's cleaned your room already, JD."

            The small boy bounced excitedly on his toes. "I'll do the bathroom!"

            "Oh no, you don't, sport," Buck interrupted. "You ain't goin' near the spray cleaners again. Here." He plucked a flat box from a pile of groceries. "Rub these over all the wood furniture. It's safer." Crestfallen, JD took the box of moist furniture polish wipes. "If that works out, I'll let ya clean the mirrors next." Buck held up a box of moist glass cleaning wipes.  JD’s lower lip poked out in a pout.

            Vin looked to Chris for an explanation. "Don't ask," Chris said lowly, turning him to the front door. "Let's just say that our tear ducts other mucus membranes aren't fully recovered from the last time JD was allowed to use spray cleaners." Maneuvering Vin out the front door, he hollered, "Be back in a few hours!" to Buck and directed Vin to the battered old Jeep slouched next to Buck's truck.

            Chris gave a confirming nod to Vin's questioning glace and Vin scrambled happily into the passenger seat, twisting sideways in a hunt for the seat belt. Chris climbed behind the wheel as he spoke.  "Vin, I promised Nate you'd sit in the back when we used the Jeep." Vin didn't seem to care and crawled easily into one of the rear seats while Chris remembered the exact conversation with the team's medic.

            "That thing is a death trap, Chris. You aren't seriously thinking of putting Vin in that monstrosity, are you? I didn't say anything when it was just you, but now . . ." Nathan seemed unimpressed with Chris' glared response.  Josiah cleared his throat and Chris swung the patented deadly gaze onto the preacher. "Don't be lookin' for any back up, Chris," Nathan continued. "It's unanimous." 

                When he turned back, Chris read the tell-tale stubbornness in Nate's crossed arms and the apologetic shrug of Ezra standing behind him. "Fine," Chris muttered. "He'll sit in back." Nathan rolled his eyes."I can't keep borrowing Buck's truck," Chris growled. "The Jeep's only temporary, anyway."         

                The corner of Chris' mouth twitched at the memory and turned over the stubborn ignition several times. Finally, the engine caught and he glanced back to make sure Vin was strapped in. It would be a cold trip with no doors or roof but he knew that Vin loved the vehicle anyway. Chris shifted gears and pointed the Jeep down the driveway seeing Nate's nodding approval in his mind's eye as they headed toward the Dodge dealer in town. His only worry was about Vin's reaction to being inside a vehicle so similar to the crashed truck that marked the event of their two year separation. He was glad the real thing was finally towed away last week.

                Vin's jaw dropped when they pulled into the dealership parking lot. He fumbled with the seatbelt when Chris said he could get out, and jumped down. Without a word he let his dad lead him to the office building where Chris shook a man's hand in greeting and accepted a set of keys. Chris thanked the man and directed Vin to the back of the lot and a shiny new truck. He unlocked the door and still without a word, motioned for Vin to climb in. He got in the driver's seat and sat quietly while Vin visually explored the interior.

                “Well?" Chris finally verbalized. "What do you think?” He gripped the steering wheel of the new Dodge Ram Quad Cab and gave his son a sidelong look. Vin’s frown was one of utmost concentration as he fingered the air conditioning vents and simultaneously poked the buttons of the stereo. He nodded seriously and turned his attention to the window switch. Chris started the truck so the switch would work. Once the window performed its up-and-down job with apparent satisfaction, Vin Tanner turned to his father and wrinkled his nose.

            “It smells funny.”

            Chris nodded. “That’s because it’s a new truck. People usually like that new car smell.”

            “Oh.” Vin reflected on that for a moment.

            “Smells like leather because of the seats,” Chris pointed out. “Does that help?”

            Vin sniffed again. “It don’t smell like my saddle.”

            Chris nodded in silent agreement. “No, it don’t . . . I mean, doesn’t.” Vin’s lips pursed in a tiny smile at his dad’s self-correction, eyes sparkling. Chris grinned.  “Well, I guess we could infuse some Peso sweat in here to make it more like your saddle.” Vin giggled.  “What, you don’t like that idea?” Chris teased as he reached over and pulled Vin into his lap. Vin grabbed the steering wheel and leaned forward to peer over the top. “The cab’s big enough for that beast of yours to fit inside,” Chris pointed out.

            Vin paused in his back and forth twisting of the polished wood wheel. “Don’t think there’d be room fer us then 'n ‘sides, he can’t sit.” He paused for a second as if considering the offer. “I think he’d be happier in his trailer,” he concluded.

            “Well, okay, then. If we do this thing, can you put up with the new car smell for awhile?”

            Vin’s lower lip poked out as he nodded. “Yeah, I think so.”

            “What color?”

            Vin stilled, then slowly twisted around to regard Chris thorough eyes narrowed in suspicion. After a moment, he asked in a serious tone, “Somethin’ wrong with black?”

            Chris tossed his head back and laughed, his unrealized worry for Vin's reaction forgotten.

CHAPTER TWO

                Spring bloomed unusually bright around the Larabee ranch in the first weeks of Vin’s return. The weather, which had been cold and gloomy, turned sunny, melting away the last of winter’s snowfall along with Chris Larabee’s emotional freeze of the past two years.

With Saturday morning breakfast over and a mug of steaming coffee cradled in his hands, Chris leaned against the porch rail in the morning sun and watched the boys release the dogs from their kennel near the barn. The explosion of fur, laughter and yelps was the best entertainment he could think of at the moment. He chuckled.

“Enjoying the floor show?” Buck asked, relaxing his long frame on the rail alongside his roommate, coffee cup also in hand.

“Yeah,” Chris sighed contentedly.

The old friends watched in companionable quiet as Vin and JD heartily romped with Ringo and Elvis, managing to raise the dogs’ excitability level to unimaginable heights. The men chortled as they finished their coffee.

When the dogs finally showed signs of exhaustion, the four disappeared into the barn. Chris straightened then, his eyes fixed on the barn’s open doors. Buck glanced at him and shook his head with a sigh.

“He’s fine in there, you know,” Buck said softly.

The relaxed softness in Chris’ features tightened slightly as he shifted and gave Buck a brief glare. His body language clearly stated that he wanted to follow Vin but, instead, he rubbed his eyes and let out a tight breath. “He slept through without a nightmare again last night.”

“That’s great, right? He’s getting it behind him, then.” Buck paused for a second before firmly meeting Chris’ eyes. “It means you can start loosenin’ up a bit.” Chris’ eyes narrowed, sharpening the glare, and then he looked toward the barn and turned toward the porch stairs. Buck’s hand on his arm stopped him. “Chris, he’s only in the barn. He voluntarily left your line of sight – it’s a good sign.”

Chris jerked his arm loose but didn’t move. His head tilted slightly and swiveled to face the barn. Faint voices drifted from the wide doorway. “Yeah, it is,” he quietly conceded.

Buck glanced toward the noise and grinned, then turned his attention back to Chris. “Come on,” he urged, indicating the house with a nod. “We got work to do before your parents get here. Can you overcome your separation anxiety long enough to clean up your office? The guest room's all ready," he said. “I’ll work on the kitchen.”

With obvious reluctance, Chris followed Buck into the house, grumbling. “I do not have separation anxiety.”

Buck snorted. “Yeah, sure, stud, and I don’t have a boatload of animal magnetism, neither.”

Chris snorted. They entered the house and Chris paused at the sliding glass door a moment before moving down the hall. Buck watched him with a smirk knowing full well that the office window had a clear, unobstructed view of the barn doors.

By the time Buck finished with the kitchen, Chris was straightening the great room and had the floor cleared. Buck grabbed the vacuum cleaner and plugged it in, glancing outside as he did so. Vin and JD were in the yard now, tossing a Nerf football back and forth over the dogs’ heads, teasing them into yet another frenzy. As Buck pushed the vacuum around, he kept an eye on the boys through the big windows, noting how Vin gravitated toward the house and how, every now and then, the boy would glance to the front door.

            Inside the house, the same act was played out by Chris. As Larabee worked, he ever so slowly found his way to the front door. Buck turned off the vacuum cleaner and leaned on the handle, chuckling and shaking his head.

“What’s so funny?” Chris grumbled as he edged toward the door, pausing at the entry table where he picked through the things stacked there.

            “You don’t even know you’re doing it, do you?” Buck accused lightly. Peripherally, he saw Vin drift toward the front stairs and out of his line of sight.

            “Know what?” Chris pawed through some loose keys tossed in a bowl.

            “You two are attached by invisible string. Right now Vin’s at the bottom of the stairs and look where you are - right there by the front door.”

            Chris raised his head enough and scowled at Buck. Before he could return his attention to the wonders of the junk-capturing bowl, he glanced at the door.

            “See? That’s what I mean," Buck pointed out. "This ain’t gonna do Vin no good when you start work Tuesday. You two have been like a strip of Velcro.”

            Chris snapped to attention and planted his hands on his hips all but resembling a stubborn mule denying a lead line. One finger tapped his hipbone as his scowl deepened into a glare. “Don’t you think you’re exaggerating just a bit?”

            “No, I don’t. Look, I understand the need for both of you to be close, I really do. What that boy’s been through . . .” Buck stopped and scrubbed his scalp with one hand and let out an exasperated breath. “He needs normalcy, Chris, and that means he needs to function without you around. You start back to full-time work in a week. After that, he starts summer school. All of that will be hard enough on him even without the separation anxiety.”

            Buck was surprised when Chris didn’t deny the allegation and was even more surprised when the glare melted from his eyes, replaced with a look tinged with – fear?

            “He’s right there.” Chris said quietly, turning his gaze to the door. “I can feel him, Buck. I don’t want to lose that ever again.”

            Buck sighed and repeated the words of Dr. Will. “I hear ya, Pard, but at some point, separation is healthy. It’s the only way he’ll grow.”

“I know, I do. I really do. It’s just . . .” Chris' excuse was interrupted by the ringing phone. He gave the door a surreptitious glance before stepping into the kitchen to answer it.

            Buck shook his head and chuckled. He backed up enough to where he could just see the front stairs through a window and watched as Vin stopped his climb up the short flight and cocked his head aside, considering. Then a Nerf football hit him square in the butt. Buck grinned at JD’s raucous laugh. Vin smiled – a rare but heartwarming sight – then turned and dashed off after his acquired sibling in revenge. It really was no contest – since returning home Vin had regained some lost weight and muscle tone. JD was a pile of giggles calling "UNCLE!" within seconds.

            Vin still had scars, however, both visible and invisible. Buck and Chris suspected Vin’s arm bothered him but he never mentioned it. Dr. Two Eagles said the old break had healed poorly and interfered with a nerve bundle near the elbow. He advised waiting until Vin was in a better physical and mental state before thinking about treatment.

            Disturbingly, Buck noticed that he would sometimes freeze in reaction to things neither Chris nor Buck could discern and one could practically see the wheels turning in the shaggy head as he processed the distraction. It took a few moments longer, however, for him to get back to speed as he returned to what he had been doing. Sometimes, though, he trembled in those few seconds; other times, he didn't recover at all and withdrew to Chris or his room or any close refuge, but those times were becoming less frequent as well as less noticeable.

            At this moment, as he rolled on the ground with JD and the dogs, Vin Tanner looked like any other 10-year-old boy and for that, Buck was grateful.

            He heard Chris hang up the phone and join him window. “They’re on their way from the airport. Should be here in about 45 minutes.”

            “Knowing Grandpa Matt, he’s gonna be armed with sweets so we’d better feed the boys now.”

            Chris snorted as he headed to the sliding glass door farther down the wall. “You have no room to talk. You’re as bad as he is.” Before Buck could protest, Chris called for the boys to come in. "I just hope having them here isn’t too much for Vin."

            Buck laughed as he headed to the kitchen. "I'd sure like to see you try 'n keep 'em away any longer, stud. Your intimidation techniques don't work too good on 'em, y’know."

            “Yeah, I know,” Chris muttered just before two boys and two excited dogs invaded the house.

            The boys were barely finished washing up from lunch when the crunchy sound of wheels on gravel caused a stampede to the front door.

            “They’re here, they’re here!” JD announced.

            “Hey!” Buck barked. “Slow down, son! You’ll scare ‘em away!” He managed to reach the door first, blocking it until he was sure the car was stopped.

            “Da! Open the door!”

            Buck laughed and slowly turned the door knob. JD was prancing in place while the dogs milled and whined, but Vin stood slightly aside with a worried expression, wringing his fingers. Chris scooped the boy up in his arms and gave him a hug before facing the door.

            “Turn ‘em loose, Buck,” he said with an evil grin. Vin frowned, not sure how to read the expression.

            Buck smirked the tension. “So it’s a ‘shock and awe’ attack, eh?”

            Chris looked to Vin and the boy visibly relaxed at the sight of his dad’s sparkling eyes. “Well? You ready for candy?”

            Vin’s eyes widened and he nodded, wriggling for release.

            “Daaaaaaaaaaa!” JD squealed, tortured to his limit.

            Buck pulled the door open just as Vin’s feet hit the floor and boys and dogs shot outside. The two men waited a few seconds before following and smiled at the scene before them.

            Matt Larabee was barely visible behind two demanding dogs as he crouched low with JD in a tight hug – the driver’s door still stood open. Claire, though, had managed to get her passenger door shut before crouching low. One arm was draped around Vin’s shoulders in a loose hold and her face was close to Vin’s, her rapt expression showing a desire to hold her grandson closer. Chris admired her ability to respect Vin’s space when her every instinct clearly wanted the opposite. After a few quiet words, Vin threw his arms around her neck and she drew him in. Tears trickled from her closed eyes as she relished the touch.

Chris felt his throat tighten and he stopped at the bottom of the stairs to give them some time. Buck slapped his back as he passed and threw his friend a wink before approaching Matt and JD.

“Hey, Lil’ Bit, let him breathe! Matt, good to see ya.”

Matthew managed to stand as JD jabbered and jumped at his feet. He reached into a pocket and pulled out small bag. “Well, how did Gummy Worms get in my pocket? That’s gross!” He held the bag out to JD. “Can you get rid of this for me?”

“They’re not gross, they’re good! Hey, Vin! Gummy Worms !”

With JD momentarily distracted, Matt reached out and shook Buck’s outstretched hand. “Buck, good to be here. Now where’s my other grandson?”

Claire held Vin’s hand as the pair circled around the front of the car, releasing it only when Matt’s took its place. Then she turned to her son with shiny eyes.

Chris stepped forward then and opened his arms. Claire melted into the hug, sniffing. “I’m so happy for you, Christopher,” she whispered hoarsely.

CHAPTER THREE

             Everyone relaxed around the ranch on Saturday giving Claire and Matt time to rest and Vin time to adjust. Buck, Chris and the boys went for a short ride at one point while Claire happily assembled lunch. When they returned, the six of them enjoyed a picnic in the yard and planned the next day's barbeque with the rest of the team.

            Matt let the boys show him around, pleased that Vin accepted him again. Vin was just as excited as JD about the barbeque, too. Matt gave a quick prayer of thanks that the boy was very close to being the grandson he'd missed for so long and that Chris was again the attentive father he remembered even after the difficult hurdles thrown at him over the years.

            Saturday evening brought with it a movie marathon and popcorn fights. Never again would any family moment be considered mundane; instead, they became a celebration.

            Chris had company on Sunday morning. How Vin managed to sneak in without waking him got Chris thinking that he must have been more tired than he realized. The day developed a different air about it with the knowledge that Chris’ work week would begin on Tuesday and the routine around the ranch would change yet again. Buck had already been back to full days for a week and Vin was tentative for the first days at that time, so Chris decided to bring Vin to the Federal building for a short visit Monday, hoping to soften Tuesday’s transition. 

            At this moment, Vin seemed withdrawn and a little worried. Claire, Matt and Chris all took turns reassuring the boy and by the time the rest of the team was due Vin seemed to be fine. He and JD joyously greeted each member as they arrived, but Vin often checked on Chris' whereabouts until everyone was accounted for.

            It was times like this, when activity levels rose and both Vin’s and his thoughts were divided, that Chris noticed a weakening of their bond. “Weakening” wasn’t precisely the word he wanted, but Chris couldn’t come up with any other description. Since Vin’s arrival they had worked to keep things calm, so this – situation – rarely arose. Chris shook his head at the frustration of trying to label his discomfort. He couldn’t say what, exactly, was wrong so he couldn’t get a grip on a solution. It was one of those things he and Vin would have to figure out on their own. Actually, he figured that it would simply work itself out as Vin’s self- confidence grew and it would never have to be discussed outside the two of them.

            As the afternoon marched on, Chris noticed Vin’s energy wane. Technically, he was being forced into mingling with a crowd and even though it was a crowd of familiar faces, there was still stress involved. At first, Chris and Buck noticed that Vin hovered on the edge of the group, usually by Chris’ side, but eventually he joined in when the talking stopped and physical activity began.

            JD, as usual, was a ball of endless energy all afternoon and Vin stayed right with him as a less boisterous shadow. As sunset etched the horizon in lines of color, a calmer atmosphere settled on the ranch and both boys settled.

            “He seems good, Chris,” Nathan commented as the barbeque was fired up. Ezra and Matt flanked the two boys sitting on the top step of the porch watching the painted sky fade toward darkness. “He’s still keeps some distance from a crowd and his eye on you, but one on one, he’s good.”

            “Each day is a little better,” Chris said as he scraped the grill in preparation for the steaks.

            “Nights are still a little challenging,” Buck interjected as he leaned against the porch railing next to Nathan. “He finally slept through on Thursday and Friday but can't stay in his room.”

            “How’s he doing with Matt and Claire in the house?”

            “Standoffish at times, but he usually interacts," Chris said. "A little nervous, maybe. Seems restless, but no nightmares.” Chris hung up the grill brush and closed the top. “Grill will be ready in ten minutes.”

            Buck stood and tilted his head toward the house. “Let’s get things together, Pard.”

            Chris fell in behind Buck. When Nathan offered to help, Chris said, “Nah. Everything’s set.”

            Buck chuckled. “That’s what happens when Claire’s around - sudden organization.” Chris frowned and started to speak. “Yeah, yeah,” Buck cut him off with a backward wave of his hand. “You’re organized, too. That quality didn’t fall far from the tree.”

            Chris’ frown deepened. “I’m not sure how to take that,” he muttered as Nathan left to join the others at the picnic table on the grass below. Chris followed Buck to the sliding door, scanning the yard. “Where’s Vin?” He paused behind Ezra, still seated on the porch steps. Buck continued inside.

            Ezra gestured over his shoulder into the house. “Young Mr. Tanner went inside. He did not elaborate on any reason but he seemed to be somewhat fatigued.”

            When Chris stepped into the house, Buck whispered “Hey.” An amused smile made Buck’s eyes sparkle when he pointed to the couch.

            Chris looked over and saw Vin on his stomach, asleep. He’d snuggled deep into a corner, one arm jammed into the space between the cushions and the couch back and the other arm tucked next to his chest. From his location the muted hum of the others’ voices outside was soothing, the sharp edge of the words softened with distance.

            Buck chucked and headed to the kitchen but Chris lingered a moment to watch the gentle rise and fall of his son’s chest. He was pleased that Vin felt secure enough to sleep here, surrounded by family and friends; that had to be some kind of victory, he thought. Carefully, he lifted a light quilt from the recliner, covered Vin’s legs and then gently stroked the tumble of hair from the boy’s face before continuing into the kitchen.

            “How long should we give him?” Buck asked quietly as he removed the bowl of potato salad from the refrigerator.

            “Twenty minutes should do him,” Chris replied with a final glance over his shoulder. Meeting Buck’s eyes, he added. “Like it does you at your desk in the office.”

            Buck snorted and cracked a grin. “It’s beauty rest to keep my valuable assets sharp, boss.”

            Chris rolled his eyes and turned away, muttering, “I’m amazed we get anything done.” Buck chuckled and the pair turned their attention to meal preparations.

            Matt Larabee rose from the deck step, laughing. Ezra’s replies to JD endless questions had entered the realm of outlandish and he marveled at both his grandson’s ability to find a question anywhere and the agent’s ability to come up with a reply- true or not - without a moment’s hesitation. The two of them seemed to be enjoying their game so Matt took the opportunity of JD’s distraction to see where his other grandson had gone.

            Claire stood nearby on the deck talking quietly with Josiah and Nathan and he caught her eye with a questioning look. She smiled warmly in return and nodded once toward the window next to her. Matt stepped to the sliding glass door and spied Vin stretched out on the couch. He, too, smiled at the sight and exchanged contented looks with his wife before quietly entering the house.

            Matt stopped at the end of the couch and watched Vin, whose face was completely relaxed in sleep. "He amazes me," the eldest Larabee thought. "To remain so innocent through all his trials." As he watched, though, Vin’s expression subtly changed. The smooth brow furrowed and twitched. A soft groan escaped his lips.  Concerned, Matt moved in next to his grandson and crouched down.

“Vin?” he called softly. “Vin?” Matt placed his palm between the boy’s shoulder blades and rubbed small circles. Vin’s frown deepened and his breathing hitched. Matt continued to rub the boy’s back with one hand as he reached for Vin’s far shoulder with the other, intending to help him sit up.

The reaction he got was completely unexpected.

Vin’s eyes snapped open and his forward arm lashed out. The other arm was caught behind him, stuck in the crevasse of the cushion against back of the couch. Matt tried to help him up and Vin exploded.

“NO, NO, NO!” he screamed, twisting away from Matt’s touch.

“Vin, son, it’s okay!” Matt soothed in vain.

Chris appeared from the kitchen in an instant but he was unable to reach his panicked son. Vin grew eerily quiet as he fought to free himself from the couch, growing hysteria fueling his struggle. Matt leaned forward and gripped Vin’s shoulders again, murmuring calmly, but fell backward suddenly when Vin head-butted his nose.

Matt hit the floor just as Vin wrenched himself free of the cushions and kicked to untangle his legs from the quilt. Chris tried to grab him but the couch’s high back blocked him. Once Vin fought his way free of the quilt, he thudded to the floor next to Matt, arms swinging and legs pumping.

Chris vaguely noticed the rest of the group spill through the sliding glass door into the great room. “Matthew!” Claire cried as she pushed her way through them.  Chris rounded the couch, his focus entirely on Vin who continued to punch and kick in uncontrolled panic. Matt, one hand pressed against his nose, still tried to reassure Vin but Chris knew it was useless – Vin was in the throes of something more than a nightmare.

“VINCENT MICHAEL TANNER!” Chris bellowed from the end of the couch.

From his knees between Matt and the couch Vin froze, gasping. His eyes were wide, round and unfocused as he blinked at his Grandpa. Claire took a step forward, but Chris held up a hand and stopped her with a glance.

 “Don’t move,” he ordered before addressing the boy in a softer tone. “Vin,” Chris said. “I’m here, son. I’m here. You’re safe.” He moved slowly as he spoke and then lowered himself to one knee at his boy’s side. Vin trembled as his eyes tracked the voice and his gaze finally linked with his father’s. Chris reached out and lightly brushed Vin’s cheek with his fingertips. “Vin? I’m here.”

Vin’s frame shook violently with the touch and he seemed to collapse inward. Both arms reached out and Chris pulled him into a secure hug. The only sounds in the room were of Vin’s desperate gasps and Chris’ low murmurs of reassurance. Slowly, Chris rose to stand. After adjusting the thin frame in his grip, he turned aside and strode down the hall, away from the crowd.

The group roused from their stunned silence with Claire’s worried voice as she kneeled next to her husband. “Matthew?” She touched the smear of blood exposed under Matt’s hand. “Looks like you have a bloody nose.”

“I’ll get a cold cloth,” Nathan said, heading to the kitchen.

“Is Vin okay, Da?” JD said nervously from the porch where Ezra held his hand. “He was so scared! Is he okay?”

Buck stepped up and gathered JD into his arms. “Shhh, lil’ bit, he’s fine. He was just havin’ a nightmare, that’s all. You know how scary that is, huh?”

“Yeah. It’s real scary.” From his father’s arms, JD looked down the hallway. “Can I go see him? He needs me.”

“Let’s give him and Chris a few minutes, buddy. Here, help me take stuff out to the table first.” Buck carried JD to the kitchen, giving Matt a worried glance over his shoulder.

“I’m okay,” Matt said rather nasally as he gave Buck a wave and accepted the damp, cool cloth Nathan offered. Claire helped him to the couch while the rest of the group tried to act “normal” for JD’s sake. Nathan asked to see Matt’s nose while Claire offered sympathy. Josiah and Ezra exchanged quiet comments as they walked to the kitchen to help with preparations. The knowledge that Vin would be ashamed and embarrassed by his actions shadowed everyone’s thoughts.

Chris concluded that Vin’s outburst was undoubtedly caused by fear or, most likely, terror.  The definition slipped from the former to the latter in relation to the time it took for Chris to feel Vin’s heartbeat settle as he rocked the slight frame in the privacy of the boys’ bedroom. Dusk slipped into the deeper shadows of night and Chris could smell the scent of barbequed steaks before Vin found his voice again.

            “Chris?” The word tickled Chris’ chest where Vin’s face pressed against him. The awful shaking had finally ceased, replaced by tender clinginess.

            “Hey, Cowboy. I’m here.” Vin kneaded Chris' shirt with a sweaty fist. Chris’ impression was that Vin was still trying to discern if he was real. “I have you now, Vin. You’re safe.”

            Several beats of silence passed before Vin shifted in the comforting grip.

            He whispered hoarsely. "I . . . I was . . . sleepin’.”

            More of a statement than a question. Chris considered it a positive sign.

            “Yes, you were. You awake now?”

            Vin nodded. “You yelled.”

            “Yes, I did. Did I scare you?”

            A small shake of his head ended with a nod and a tiny gasp. “Weren’t you that scared me. I . . . I’s dreamin’.”

            “You want to talk about it?”

            Vigorous shaking of the shaggy head said it all. It was the same response he gave Dr. Will received when asked about his dreams at their twice a week appointments.

            “Maybe later, then.” Chris stroked Vin’s hair, concentrating completely on calming his charge and shoving his questions to the deepest part of his mind. Vin shifted again and pulled away a little. Chris looked down. “Hungry?”

            “Smells good,” Vin whispered after a moment, studying his fingers entwined in Chris’ shirt front. Pulling them loose, he then examined his nails and glanced sideways at his father. “I’s sorry.” The words were barely audible. His fingers worked into a fist.

            Chris tilted his son’s face up with a finger under his chin. “Vin, there’s nothing to be sorry about. You can’t control your dreams.”

            “It was . . . so real . . .” Vin clutched at Chris’ shirt again, his hands trembling.

            It was at that moment that Dr. Will’s warnings arose in Chris’ memories. “Vin’s recounted a lot of his time with Grace and Jesse, but there is still the time he spent with Harold Evans to be accounted for. We both know that the facts point toward molestation at the least and rape at the worst. Either way, those memories will surface at some time - probably when he starts to feel safe again -  and you’ll have to be prepared.”

                Chris found he wasn’t prepared in the least. With that, he fell back on the one thing that worked – he re-settled his boy in his arms and spoke from the heart. “This is what’s real, Vin. Your family.” Vin’s eyes slid sideways and upward, the blue visible between blond lashes as he regarded his dad. Vin didn’t look entirely convinced.

            Chris knew what the boy wanted to hear but he wasn’t sure he could sell the sentiment yet; it was, after all, his fault Vin was taken two years ago and the guilt was still heavy inside. Chris held the boy’s gaze and forced a smile, saying the words anyway and hoping Vin would believe them. Maybe if he said them enough, they both would believe them. “With your family at your back, you’re always safe, son.”

            It was a long few moments before Chris felt rather than saw Vin’s nod. He relaxed his grip when Vin pressed back, twisting his head so he could look at his dad's face. After a moment, Vin raised a finger and traced the corded scar that split Chris' left eyebrow.

            It must be their unique bond – strong at this moment - that allowed the boy to immediately zero in on the symbol of his father's guilt, Chris realized. The action was followed by a grumbling noise that broke the deep connection.

            Chris chuffed and guiltily broke the examination by pressing Vin’s head gently back onto his chest. “Sounds like someone besides me is hungry.”

            “I . . . I can’t.” Vin sounded scared, but Chris deduced that he was more than likely mortified by his actions now that he had the presence of mind to remember them.

            “Hey.” Chris pressed his hand over the small, nervous fingers entwined in his shirtfront, stilling them. “We all have things we’re embarrassed about, Vin. But you and I have something some people don’t.” With charged hesitance, Vin leaned back again and questioningly raised his eyes to Chris’. Chris was relieved he could say something he truly believed this time. “See? You already know. We have good friends and family that stand by us. They understand, Vin, but we won’t face them until you’re ready.”

            Chris pulled his boy close again and waited for any signal of the next step. He smiled when Vin’s stomach grumbled once more and forced a decision.

            “I . . . I need to talk to Grampa Matt first,” Vin whispered. “I gotta 'pologize, don’t I?”

            “If it’s what you think needs to be done, son.” They separated and Chris stood. Vin looked around, seeming to just realize that they had been on the floor of his room this whole time. “Do you want me to bring him here?”

            Vin nodded stiffly. “I . . . um, gotta wash my hands.” He rubbed his palms on his shorts.

            “You do that and I’ll get Grampa Matt. Trust me, Vin, everything’s okay.” Chris rested his hand on the top of Vin’s head for a moment. “Ready?” He offered his hand and Vin took it. Chris opened the room door and they both stepped into the hall. Happy chatter drifted from the great room, easing Vin’s tense posture and Chris turned him to the bathroom. “ Wash up and I’ll send Grampa to your room.”

            Vin nodded and darted into the bathroom. Chris smiled as the door clicked shut, knowing this was only another beginning to yet another trial for Vin. His grin faded with his sigh. It was still a long road ahead. It was easier, he thought, knowing of the support that awaited the both of them in the great room. He unconsciously rubbed the scar over his eye and headed down the hall.

            All eyes were on him when he stepped into the room but they visually relaxed when he nodded, each of them returning to their dinner preparation duties. Chris didn’t see his father at first and headed toward the kitchen at Buck’s head tilt in that direction. There, he found his mom fussing over his dad.

“Let me see, dear.”

“I’m fine, honey. Really.” Matt sounded like he had a head cold.

“How’s Junior?” Buck’s question pulled Chris from his parents’ interaction.

“Fine.”

Buck rolled his eyes and stood in front of Chris with his arms crossed over his chest. “Of course he’s fine. Where’s he now?”

“Washin’ up.” Chris glanced around the kitchen.

“JD’s with Josiah at the grill,” Buck added.

Chris nodded and turned back around. “Dad?” His mother dabbed his father’s nose with a damp washcloth. Chris raised an eyebrow at his father’s swollen face. “You all right?”    

“Yes, yes, I’m fine. How’s Vin?” Matt’s eyes refocused on Claire and he sputtered, “Enough, woman, I’m fine.”

Nathan snorted as he entered the kitchen. “That’s where they get that,” he muttered on his way to the sink.

Chris didn’t acknowledge his teammate. He addressed Matt with a slight grin. “He wants to see you in his room.”

There wasn’t any hesitation as Matt started from the kitchen. Chris stopped him with a hand on his arm. “I think he remembered something,” Chris said lowly, meeting Matt’s eyes. “Don’t press.”

“I won’t.” Matt reached up and patted Chris’ cheek. “You’re a great dad,” he said before turning down the hall.

Chris watched him disappear into the boys’ room then turned back to find the others smirking at him. “Dinner ain’t gonna serve itself,” he growled, as he lifted a large knife from the counter. “Who’s burning the meat?”

Nathan and Buck bolted from the room as Claire frowned disapprovingly at her son.

 <<<<< M7/ATF/LB >>>>>

             “Vin?” Matt tapped on the bedroom door and waited. His nose throbbed but he chose to ignore it for the moment. “Vin?” he called again, fighting the urge to press his ear to the door.

            “Grampa Matt?”

            Vin’s soft voice behind him made him jump before turning to the boy in the hall. Vin looked small and very worried. Matt immediately dropped to a knee. “Vin?” he queried, touching his grandson’s shoulder. “How are you doing?” He ached to wrap his arms around his grandson but instead, stroked back Vin’s wavy hair.

            “I’m fine,” he said quietly. “I’m . . . sorry, Grampa. I hurt you.” Vin’s voice quivered with the last words and his fingers twisted together.

            Matthew Larabee was a man that easily stood up for himself but with this heartbreaking apology, any semblance of decorum fell aside. Without another word, he gathered Vin in his arms and drew the small body to his own. “Oh, Vin,” he began in spite of his tight throat. “You have no need to apologize. I’ll always love you, no matter what. I want you to always believe that but until your heart believes it, it won’t be true.”

            The statement seemed to upset Vin. He dropped his eyes and concentrated on his writhing and entwined fingers.

            “Vin?” Matt said softly, laying his big hand on top of the busy fingers. “It just takes time, that’s all. Your heart will come around. I promise.”

            “What about Dad’s heart? Will it believe, too?”

            The question astonished Matt - not for the fact that Christopher wrestled with guilt about Vin’s disappearance, but that, above his own personal agonies, Vin noticed the depth of Chris’ pain, too. It took a bit of time for Matt to collect himself enough to speak.

            “Yes,” he rasped lowly. “It will. With your help, it will.”

            Matt felt the tenseness melt away from Vin’s body as the boy finally returned the embrace. “I was dreamin’,” he started, “‘n he . . .” It seemed he was going to say more, but his voice caught and he swallowed hard before falling silent. Matt felt a shiver roll through the tiny body.

            “I’m here, Vin. We’re all here for you. We love you. You remember that when things get tough, okay?”

             Vin’s cheek rubbed against Matt’s chest as he nodded. “’kay,” he whispered.

            Matt held him a minute longer and then sniffed the air. “Hey,” he said. “I smell steak. Ready for some food? I know I’m hungry.”

            “Yeah,” Vin acknowledged after a moment before wiggling free and turning those wide, blue eyes to his Grandpa.

Matt saw that a trace of uncertainty still hovered there so he slowly stood, unable to contain a slight groan from overtaxed knees, and took Vin’s hand.

The uncertainty fled with concern. “You okay, Grampa?” Vin asked, holding Matt’s hand tightly.

Matt chuckled. “Nothing that some more time with my grandsons won’t fix,” he replied. Vin managed a tiny smile as Matt tugged Vin toward the great room.  “Come on, kiddo. My knees may not work right anymore, but there’s nothin’ wrong with my stomach!”

Vin’s face brightened with his smile and they headed back to the gathering.

CHAPTER FOUR

            After Sunday’s festivities, Monday morning seemed overly quiet. With Buck at work and JD at school, Chris, Vin, Matt and Claire enjoyed a quiet breakfast and lazy morning. After that, Chris and Vin readied themselves to pick up the new truck and trade in the Jeep.

            Vin was sad about getting rid of the “death trap on wheels”; Chris had considered hanging on to it for him but that thought had been summarily crushed by the rest of the team the very first time it was uttered aloud. He had to grin every time he recalled the appalled looks he’d received at the idea.

            After picking up the truck and getting lunch, Chris planned to drop by the office and pick up a little work and reacquaint Vin with the place. Matt and Claire would pick up JD from school and then meet them at the ranch. While Chris worked on files, the boys would be treated to movie and dinner with Grandma and Grampa in town.

            Chris knew Vin would figure out the underlying plan to ease into their separation. He couldn’t think of a better way to soften the needed steps; Claire and Matt were perfect for the assignment.

            The only glitch in plans was the phone call Chris received just as they left he car dealer. Buck called to tell him that Travis just called a meeting and requested Chris’ participation.

            Vin’s grip on Chris’ hand tightened with their first step into the Federal Building and grew more damp as the crowd thickened near the security line. He looked down briefly with a confidant smile and Vin gallantly tried to return the gesture. To Chris, he just looked a lost. The fun and excitement of picking up the new truck had run its course.

            “Nothing’s changed much here, has it?” The question aimed to keep Vin slightly distracted as they cleared security and headed to the elevator banks.

            Before answering the boy looked carefully around and finally shook his head. “No,” he said softly. His grip loosened slightly.

            Silver doors slipped open with a muted metallic thump. Chris stepped in first with Vin a half step behind, followed by a half dozen or so other riders. It was a close atmosphere and Chris felt that Vin probably needed further distraction. He leaned over a spoke lowly into his son’s ear. “14^th floor.”

            Vin scanned the numbered circles, poking the appropriate one. The other riders smiled amusingly and verbalized floors, keeping Vin occupied for a short while after the doors swooshed shut. By the time he was finished, their stop was upon them. The small hand initiated its grip again.

            “I’m sorry about the change in plans, son,” Chris said in a soothing voice. “Shouldn’t take long – I just have to pick up a few things after I meet with Travis and then we’ll have lunch and get on home. Give the new truck a real road test.”

            Vin nodded exhaled a little sigh. Looking down at the soft, wavy tresses of his boy’s head, Chris was once again extremely grateful to have this second chance with the son of his heart.

            When the doors opened on the 14^th floor Vin scooted out a half step ahead of his dad and lead the way down the hall. Chris quirked a grin, pleased that he remembered the way. Smiles and murmured greetings followed them as they passed various clerical staff and agents. The story of the emotional rescue had spread to every corner of the floor.

            Vin paused a second as if pulling from a memory and pushed open the appropriate door, releasing Chris’ hand and walking inside ahead of him.

            “Well, look who has graced us with their illustrious presence!  Master Tanner, you are looking well today.” Ezra rose from his chair and moved closer, extending his hand.

            “Hi, Uncle Ezra.” Vin shook the offered hand shyly and then turned a bright expression in Chris’ direction.

            “Vin,” Nathan greeted warmly when he stepped from the break room. “It’s good to see you. How are the new wheels?’         

            Chris took the opportunity to find Buck as both Nathan and Ezra gave Vin their full attention regarding the new truck. The boy’s slow, soft words warmed him – Vin’s self-confidence blossomed in familiar territory. Chris found Buck and Josiah in his office. Buck was leaning back in the chair with his feet on Chris’ desk, crossed at the ankles. Josiah stood next to him, his finger tapping a file folder in Buck’s hand. Chris and raised a questioning eyebrow at the pair. “Comfy?”       

            Buck looked up and broke into a grin. “Hey, boss, just getting’ things all organized for ya, that’s all.”
            “What’s this meeting about?” Reluctant to be sucked into his workspace, Chris stayed in the open office door and glare. “It couldn’t wait?”

            “I’ve got a few theories on Faraday,” Josiah said, taking the folder back from Buck. “Travis says he has some new information.”

            Buck waved a hand and picked up the phone. “I know you gotta get Vin back home to meet up with JD and your parents. I told Travis that.” He punched a few buttons and spoke into the receiver. “Chris’ here. We’re headin’ up now.”

            Buck stood and playfully pushed Chris into the bullpen with Josiah trailing behind. Vin sat on a desk chair, swinging his feet a looking not only relaxed, but happy and involved with whatever had Nathan and Ezra had going.

            “Vin? I’ll be right back. I’ll be up in Travis’ office.” Vin glanced up and nodded, then returned his attention on a handful of playing cards. Chris didn’t have to ask where they came from.

            “We have everything under control here,” Ezra said as he pulled a card out of his jacket pocket. “Is this your card?” He asked, looking back to the boy. Nathan snorted and Vin cocked a suspicious eye at his uncle.

            Chris shook his head, chuckled at Vin’s glare and left the room behind Buck and Josiah. Once in the elevator, Buck leaned close and said, “So you’re okay with leaving him two floors down?”

            “Shut up, Buck,” Chris growled half-heartedly. There was no way he’d admit any reservations now, especially with the understanding smile plastered on Josiah’s face.

            Travis’ secretary greeted the agents warmly when they walked in. “The Director is waiting for you in the conference room.”

            Chris glanced at Buck, who shrugged. “Someone else here?”

            “There’s a Dr. Beauchamp in with Director Travis. That’s all I can tell you.” She pointed at the closed conference room door. “They are expecting you. Go on in.”

            A tiny thread of dread began to knot in Chris’ gut when he lightly rapped the door before pushing it open. The feeling that they were getting bushwhacked crossed Chris’ mind.

            “Chris, Buck, Josiah I’m glad you’re here. Sorry for the suddenness, but I think you need to see this.” Travis sat at the head of a small table and waved a remote control in the general direction of a video screen on the wall. “This is Dr. Elliot Beauchamp.” The Director gestured to a balding man sitting to his right. Open files and loose sheets papered the table in front of the pair. “He’s the psychiatrist the Feds contracted to evaluate Jesse Faraday – or the man that calls himself Jesse Faraday.”

            Buck greeted the doctor but Chris’ eyes narrowed at Travis. “If he’s not Jesse Faraday then who is he?”

            Josiah sat next to the Doctor and asked to peruse a file on the table. Beauchamp slid it over to the big agent as Travis motioned for them to sit and they did – Chris reluctantly.

            After a moment, Travis spoke. “I know you haven’t officially returned to full duty yet, Chris, but I thought you’d want to know about this. Remember when Vin couldn’t pick out Faraday in the photo line-up we showed him at his doctor’s office?”  

            “Yeah.”

            “That’s because none of those photos were of the man we know as Jesse Faraday. The man we have in custody is someone else.”

            “Who?”

            “We still don’t know. No prints on file, no facial recognition software hits, no DNA matches, nothing. We even tried voice recognition. The Jesse Faraday that was Grace Faraday Giltner’s blood brother died six years ago.”

            Dr. Beauchamp spoke. “I was asked to interview the man in question and evaluate his mental condition at the request of the Agency,” he said. “I’ve had a several interviews with him in the past two weeks. That is what I have here.” He motioned toward the monitor.

            Travis pointed the remote at the screen but Chris stopped him with a raised hand. “I’m sorry, I have to ask. How long will this take? Vin’s supposed to meet my parents at the ranch in about two hours.”

            “It may take awhile, Chris. Maybe one of your team could take him home?”

            Chris instantly bristled at the idea of separating from Vin, but at the same time he recognized the feeling and gave Buck an annoyed glare. There was no way he’d yet admit how much truth there was to his friend’s evaluation. Buck’s returned smirk was definitely the “I told you so” kind.

            “Call Nathan,” Buck suggested. “He was planning on taking off early anyway and the ranch is in the same general direction as Raine’s clinic.”

            Chris ground his teeth and stood. “Excuse me a minute.” He moved out to the reception area and dialed his cell phone. “Nathan? Can you take Vin home? I’m going to be tied up longer than I thought and my parents are picking him up there. Hit McDonald’s on your way out of town.”

            “Sure, Chris. No problem.”

            “Thanks, Nate, I appreciate it.” He worked to convince himself that this brief separation might be a good thing for Vin – for the both of them. “Let me talk to Vin.”

            “Sure.”

            Although Chris kept his tone upbeat he could tell that Vin was disappointed and tentative at the change in plans.

            “When ya gonna be home?” Vin asked softly.

            Chris could see him in his mind’s eye holding the phone close and hunching his shoulders over in an effort to conceal his worry. “Before you and JD, I’m sure. You’ll have fun with Grampa and Grandma – I know they’re looking forward to it. We’ll have some cocoa before bed and you can tell me all about the movie, okay?”

            “Okay.” The reply was a bare whisper.

            “I love you, Vin.”

            “I love you too, dad.”

            Chris closed the phone and let out a frustrated breath. Carding his hair with his fingers Chris glanced up to see Travis’ secretary looking sympathetic. “Tough being a parent, isn’t it?”

            “Sometimes, yeah.” Returning a tightlipped smile, he rejoined the meeting and tried to focus on the meeting.

<<<<< M7/ATF/LB >>>>>

             “Let me guess.” Nathan said as they headed down the highway to the ranch after driving through the Golden Arches. “You’re saving the other half of that apple pie for Peso.”

            The medic was glad that Vin seemed to be comfortable around him; because of that, Nathan refrained from any comments about the downside of food from the Golden Arches. Although Vin wasn’t as animated as he’d seen him in the past weeks, his body language reflected contentment. Not usually chatty in any sense of the word, Nathan wasn’t concerned about the stretches of silence during the drive. Vin replied to all his questions and had even asked a question or two of his own regarding Raine. The apple pie observation even made him smile.

            “Yeah,” Vin admitted as he cradled the golden arches bag in his hands. “Chris says he’s a junk food junkie like me ‘n JD.”

            Nathan cringed and they shared a laugh, then it was quiet for a minute or two. “So,” Nathan started. “Chris tells me you’re getting tested for school on Thursday? You nervous about that?”

            Vin glanced his way and then stared out to the road as it unwound before them. “A little,” he said quietly.

            “Is it seeing the kids at school again or the test itself that makes you nervous?”

            “A little of both, I guess.” Vin dropped his gaze and fingered the fast food bag. “Not sure what I’ll remember.”

            “You mean what kids you’ll remember?”

            Vin nodded. “Yeah. I just . . .”

            “You don’t want them looking at you like you have two heads or something.”

            Vin’s head jerked up, the flash of surprise quickly replaced with a shy smile. “Yeah. Like that. I don’t want ‘em lookin’ at me.”

            “Well, that hasn’t changed one bit. Still doesn’t like too much attention,” Nathan thought. “I’m sure it will be very low key, Vin. Testing like this is a private thing and the school is required to keep it that way. Chris said he’d be there, too. It’ll be fine, I’m sure. Nothin’ like having a Larabee shield.”

            That seemed appealing to the boy and after a small smile, he sighed and looked outside. The wind had picked up and the tree tops gently twisted against a spotty blue sky. Puffy clouds tumbled lazily across each other. “It’s supposed ta rain later,” Vin said.

            “You hear that on the news?” Nathan asked. He hadn’t paid attention and now wondered about his and Raine’s plans to go shopping.

            “Nah. It just . . . feels like it. I better make sure the horses are in.”

            “How about I drop you at the barn?” Nathan thought the solo chore was a good step in Vin reclaiming his self-confidence. “I’ll head up to the house and get it unlocked.”

            “I need to bring the dogs up, too,” Vin added. “They get scared if they stay in the kennel during a storm.”

            “Sounds like a plan. Come and get me if you need help with anything.”

            By the time they rounded the final, long turn and the ranch driveway came into view, the wind had picked up and the patches of blue in the sky were quickly filling in. Although the clouds weren’t dark at the moment, Nathan knew how quickly things could change. He stopped behind to the barn, close to the rear door and pleased to see that Chris’ wrecked truck was finally gone; things were looking up at the Larabee household. Smiling at the thought, he glanced at the turn-out pasture as Vin exited and noticed that it looked empty. He also heard the dogs barking rather furiously and figured they heard his car. “Sounds like they’ll be happy to get inside.”

            “Yeah. I’ll make sure the barn’s closed up ‘n give the horses some feed.” Vin’s hair fluttered in the rising wind as he turned to close the car door. Hugging Peso’s treat close to his chest, Vin waved and smiled, his small figure quickly disappearing inside the barn.

            Nathan chuckled and continued around the barn and got a first look at the house as he continued up the drive. It always seemed impossibly quiet when the boys were gone; a slight feeling of melancholy put Nathan in a somber mood.

            He parked the car around the back, as close as he could get to the house, and entered through the kitchen door after fumbling to find the right key. Once inside, he quickly strode through the kitchen to the front door where the alarm panel was mounted. His mind was completely distracted by thoughts of the devastating events this house had bared witness to over the years as he dropped the keys in his pocket and lifted his arm to the panel. When he raised a finger to punch the security code, Nathan was momentarily stymied when he realized the digital display was blank.

            Instantly alert, a faint noise down the hall instigated reaction and his gun was in his hand without thought. Nathan froze – listening. The power appeared to be out, but something about that and the alarm didn’t add up – there should be a battery back-up so the system couldn’t be disabled.

            Nathan held his breath and visually checked the great room and kitchen before moving carefully to the hallway and the source of the muted sound, reaching into his pocket to turn off the phone – he didn’t want it to ring and give away his position.

            The only noise he heard was that of the growing storm and the distant barking of the frenzied dogs in the kennel; had he imagined the sound or was there a reason the dogs were upset? Nathan cautiously crept down the hall and paused at the first door, which was on his right and partially ajar – the boys’ bathroom.

            When Nathan pressed the door fully open and glanced inside the small room he heard rustling from the boys’ room and spun around. Muzzle flash from the bedroom doorway surprised him into returning fire at the same time he felt a fiery jab in his thigh.

Nathan fired again in the general direction of the flash, seeing an indistinct shadow sink deeper into the small bedroom. He heard barked orders and realized he was out-numbered on top of being seriously injured and instinctively turned to retreat and regroup. Nathan managed several strides before his leg collapsed. Using the forward motion he rolled and crawled to the kitchen and then hauled himself to his feet using the kitchen table.

 “There should be more pain.”  The thought crossed his mind as he stumbled through mud room, fumbled with the door lock and fell out to the porch. Another shot hit the door frame and splinters peppered Nathan’s cheek – no time to escape in the car. Instead, he used it as cover and bolted for the nearby trees, thankful for the adrenalin that allowed him to function. 

            Once under the concealment of the trees, Nathan began a wide circle toward the barn and Vin. Only after he was with the boy would he think of escape; for now, he had to be quiet and quick. The wind was in his favor at the moment. Being the leading edge of a storm Nathan knew it would rapidly grow in strength until the first downpour, and then it would quickly dissipate as the front blew onward. For now, he could use the growing tempest to help mask his movements but he had to move fast.

            The blossoming pain in his thigh forced him to consider his ability to move at all by the time he’d reached the back of the barn. Wrenching the shuddering door open, Nathan used it as a crutch as he made his way inside.

            “Vin!” He wanted to shout at the top of his stressed lungs, but he had no idea where the shooters were. The fractious door challenged his balance and pain dangerously narrowed his vision. He had to get the boy out of here. “Vin!”

            He had no idea where he came from, but in the next instant Vin was at his side, supporting him with eyes as wide as a turbulent ocean. Still, he bravely stood his ground.

            “Vin, you have to ride.” Nathan’s voice was breathy, the groans he tried to hold back eking out between clenched teeth.

“No!” Vin refused bravely, his voice quivering.

“You have to go,” Nathan gasped, dragging the boy toward Peso’s stall. All the horses milled nervously, banging the walls, their eyes white-edged in fear. Managing to drag a bridle from a hook beside the door, Nathan released Vin and used an elbow for traction to push his way up the wall where he started working the stall door’s latch. Shiny blood oozed from his thigh, shadowing the hole in his jeans with red. “They want you, Vin. You have to get away and hide.”

“No, Unca Nathan, I . . .” Terror edged Vin’s voice to a higher pitch.

“They can’t follow you. The rain will cover your tracks when it gets here. It’s the best, Vin. Ride west, toward the city. Use the hills and trees for cover.” As he spoke, Nathan managed to free the latch then slumped aside to open the stall door. The straw in Peso’s stall rustled and the animal snorted nervously.

Vin breathing stuttered as he fought tears. “Unca Nathan . . .”

“You have to, Vin.” Nathan stumbled into the stall, using the wall to keep upright. “Your dad will find you. One of us will find you. Come on . . .” He directed toward the sketchy horse suspiciously regarding him from across the stall.

Nathan spoke softly in an effort to calm Peso but the horse was having none of it. The big animal shifted, planting his feet, busy ears reflecting conflicted thoughts before finally pinning back; he zeroed in a targeting glare. As he bunched to charge, Vin stepped between them and the horse aborted his lunge.

“Hey there, Peso. Stop it. You know Nathan.” The boy’s voice was remarkably calm. Without dropping his gaze, Vin reached back and Nathan shoved the bridle into his hand. He could now use both hands to keep atop his failing legs.

The fleeting seconds it took for Vin to approach and slip on the headstall allowed the searching voices outside to grow much louder, even in the rising wind. Roof shingles rattled and the barn walls shivered with an especially hard gust. Vin kept Peso distracted and focused on him as he lead the horse to the stall’s corner manger. Once there, Vin crawled up onto the edge and easily slipped onto the wide, black back in one smooth motion.

Nathan stood frozen during it all, afraid to move and break the calming spell Vin weaved with his words. Once the boy was mounted, though, a long groan slipped from Nathan’s throat as he pressed the heel of his hand against his wound. Pushing back against the wall he worked his way out of the stall and stumbled to the rear barn door. Peso’s dark shadow followed. Nathan managed a firm hold on the resisting rear door and pushed it open, exposing the distant hills, the growing black sky and roiling trees. He struggled to keep his feet as the door fought him.

The wind moaned. Vin legged Peso forward into the coming darkness. Nathan could tell that the boy was as scared as he’d ever been but Vin still managed to keep the fractious horse calm. His ability to look collected in the heart of chaos reminded Nathan of Chris and he caught his breath at the sudden revelation.

The pair eased outside, Peso’s ears flicking constantly, his manner tense yet obedient and trusting. Vin was the animal’s sole anchor at the moment.

“Here.” Nathan slipped out of his jacket and handed it up to Vin. “Wrap up and git. My cell phone’s in the pocket. Don’t call here, understand? Get away then call Travis. His number’s on my ‘Contacts’ list. Get to a safe place first.”

“Nathan . . .” Vin started, hugging the jacket to his chest and fighting to keep Peso reined in. His hair whipped wildly in the wind, a living frame to the depth of fear that colored his eyes.
            “Go, Vin!” Nathan could hear voices at the front of the barn. They were out of time.  He pulled his gun from the small of his back and stumbled into the barn, wrestling the door behind him.

Vin had no other choice. Nathan watched through the door’s closing gap as Vin reined Peso toward the distant mountains and leaped away into the trees. With the door fully shut and latched, Nathan leaned against it for a moment, mentally counting until he was sure Vin was out of sight. Then, dragging his wounded leg, stepped deeper into the barn and tried to think. Terse orders shouted just outside the double doors facing the house kept him moving – he had to find a place to hide and give Vin time to get some distance between them.

Something banged the doors. Nathan ducked into Peso’s empty stall and fell, his agony-ripped leg finally giving away for good. He managed to drag his protesting body under the manger and pushed himself into the corner; the location wouldn’t hold up under a careful search but the small space under the solid, wall-mounted manger was deep enough and dark enough to pass a first glance. Nathan pulled his wounded leg in close and worked to ignore the eye-watering effects of the manure and urine-laced straw that pillowed his body. He pushed it in front of him as cover and clutched his weapon to his chest, listening hard over his runaway heart.

He heard the main doors slide open and felt a solid thump on the stall wall as Pony paced his enclosure next door. Each stall had an outside paddock and Nathan could hear the other horses milling both inside and out as threat approached from all directions. The dogs’ barking had become furious. A deep roll of thunder caused nervous nickering – Nathan had a hard time hearing the approach of his adversaries.

A low voice spoke sharply at Pony’s stall door and Nathan tensed. Another replied from somewhere else in the barn. A stall door rattled, followed by a thump.

“SHIT! He attacked me!”

“It’s a horse not a guard dog!” the sharp voice snapped right next to Nathan. A pair of worn work boots stopped in Peso’s stall, an arm’s reach away.

“ Okay Dr. Doolittle, you go in there and check!”

“It’s the storm, you moron. They’re scared and want out.”

“There’s nothin’ here anyway . . .”

Nathan heard the boot wearer swear softly and the sound of rusting clothes. “Yes, sir?” the voice said, answering a cell phone. A momentary pause, then, “We’ve searched the house and grounds. There was only one guy. We winged ‘im and he’s hidin’ somewhere. We’re searchin’ the barn. No sign of the kid. I don’t think he’s here.” Another pause. “What?” followed by, “The house too? I don’t think we’ll have time.” The boots stepped out of the stall and out of Nathan’s view. “Yes, sir.” The phone snapped closed and the speaker barked words that made Nathan instantly break into a cold sweat. “He says burn it.”

“Gladly!” the other voice snarled. “Fuckin’ animals.” A stall door was kicked – Nathan couldn’t tell if it was by horse or human. “There’s some gas cans in the tool room over there.”

Swallowing rising bile, Nathan visually measured the distance from where he was to the outside paddock – if he used the smoke as cover, he prayed to make it out before he burned to death. 

 CHAPTER FIVE

When realization struck, Chris pushed instantly to his feet. “Are you saying that he’s planning an escape?”

            Josiah nodded while leafing through the doctor’s notes. “It’s the only conclusion I can draw with this additional information. I wouldn’t be surprised if a plan was put in motion the day he was arrested.” He tapped Dr. Beauchamp’s folder. “He has no fear of incarceration. This man truly believes that this isn’t his destiny. He is a paranoid and meticulous planner. Nothing is out of his control.”

            Dr. Beauchamp nodded in agreement. “That is why I brought this information to you so quickly. My last appointment with him was Saturday afternoon.”

            “And from what little we know of him personally, we know the depth of his connections,” Travis said lowly. “He even had one of our own on his payroll! How do you think he found out about our raid on his place and got our tactical gear? I have no doubt he already has a plan in action.” Usually, the Assistant Director was a picture of control. This suggestion, however, obviously rattled him. Buck could see his mind racing with possible scenarios; trying to outthink this particular foe was not so simple.

            “This man has always had a plan set,” Beauchamp continued. “He always has a contingency. That is why he is so hard to trace – he’s thought of everything.”

            There was a beat of tense quiet. Chris snapped his gaze to Travis and pinned him with a glare. “You knew this?”

            “Suspected the possibility.  That’s why the Doctor’s here now. After reading Agent Sanchez’s evaluation last week I arranged for Dr. Beauchamp’s final interview to be bumped up to Saturday. I’m sure Faraday is not the easiest nut to crack, but it looks like it’s not an ‘if’ for an escape attempt. It’s a ‘when’.”

            “And that ‘when’ is close,” Buck said. “Once he’s moved to the high security lock up, it will be nearly impossible to escape.”

            “No,” Josiah corrected, “not impossible for him. The connections we’ve found so far are alarming, but I have a feeling we have only scratched the surface. I have no doubt he’ll use everything he has this time and we’re in for some big surprises. He will not fail.”

            “I concur.” Beauchamp indicated Travis to start the tape. Jesse Faraday looked into the camera lens as he spoke with the complete confidence and presentation of a tenured politician. Each question was answered briefly, as if simply tolerated. It was as if he was already gone from captivity in his mind. It was chilling.

            Travis’ phone flashed and he picked it up as the rest of them watched the last interview with the man calling himself Jesse Faraday. He had the same predator-hard eyes as Ted Bundy and Charles Manson.

            When Travis hung up the phone, the look in his eye caused Chris’ posture to stiffen.

            “That was County jail. Carl Harrigan was just found stabbed to death.”

            “Harrigan,” Buck repeated. “One of the two guys we arrested at Faraday’s place?” Travis nodded. “The other guy – he hung himself in his cell a week ago. All witnesses we had are now gone and Faraday has the perfect alibi – he’s in lock up.”

            Travis nodded again, but Josiah spoke. “Loose ends tied up. Any connections to the jail staff?”

            The hesitation was enough of an answer; it was suspicious. Faraday had payroll on the County staff, too. Chris held his boss’ hard stare. He could see it in Travis’ eyes – he’d come to the same conclusion. “He failed once,” Chris noted darkly. “Vin’s the only living witness against him now. The things he saw at Faraday’s place? He tried to get Vin at the scene.” Chris flexed his knuckles at the memory.

            “And was thwarted in his attempt.” Beauchamp claimed Chris’ glare and flinched.

            “I have absolutely no doubt that he will try again, Chris.” Josiah’s higher tone and quickly spoken words relayed his alarm. “And if he still wants an alibi, the attempt will be while he’s still in custody.”

            Chris’ voice was icy cold and his eyes just as sharp as they turned to Travis. “When is Faraday getting moved?”

            “This evening.”

            Chris was through the office door before anyone could blink. Buck was a fraction of a second behind.

            “Agent Sanchez, wait.” Travis managed to grab the profiler’s arm as he charged after his teammates. “I want Vin in witness protection until this is over, until Faraday is securely locked down.”

            Josiah paused long enough to hear out his boss. “Pardon me, sir, but it sounds like that’s probably not going to happen in the near future. We can’t trust anyone with Vin’s security until we know the depth of Faraday’s infiltration. Right now, our family is in danger. Excuse me.”

            Travis was on the phone the instant the door closed.

            Chris barreled into Team 7’s office with his cell phone to his ear. “God damn it, Nathan!” he snarled. “Pick up!”

            Ezra startled at the brutal entrance and shot to his feet. The expression on Chris’ face was all the persuasion he needed to don his jacket.

            “Try the house on the land line,” Buck said loudly as he snatched the receiver from the cradle on his desk. Chris disappeared into his office. Buck spoke as he dialed. “Josiah, you and Ez head out to the ranch and brief Ezra on the way. I’m callin’ Matt and Claire and telling them to bring JD here to wait.”

            “Wait for what, may I ask?” Ezra asked. Buck glared at him in response.

            “Come on, brother,” Josiah said, pulling Ezra out the door by his arm. “I’ll explain, but we have to move now.”

 <<<<<M7/LB/ATF>>>>>>>

            Josiah’s Suburban rumbled down the winding road at a white-knuckle pace. As Ezra gripped the dashboard and door’s arm rest he again thanked any God above that the road was still dry. Although the tempestuous wind-rocked trees and the roiling black clouds thickly blanketing the sky foreshadowed the coming storm’s violence, the rain delayed. He only hoped it would hold off long enough . . . for what, he couldn’t quite name.

 “Where’s the rain?” Josiah murmured as they crossed the double yellow lines to cut the corner of the road’s curve.

“Do not borrow trouble, Mr. Sanchez. I would prefer the roadway remain dry at the moment.” Ezra braced his feet on the floor for the next wild turn but still slipped a bit along the bench seat. He pulled himself back into place.

“Me too, but that doesn’t bode well,” the profiler noted.

Ezra glanced at him and then followed Josiah’s troubled gaze outside. A dark grey haze hovered before them, beyond the curve. As the vehicle plunged into it, Ezra realized with one breath that it was smoke. Chris’ driveway was the next right turn. “Can’t you go any faster?” he snapped. When he reached for the county-wide radio in the glove box and alerted the fire department, Ezra hoped that whatever was burning wasn’t on Larabee’s property.

Josiah straightened from the curve and then made a hard right onto the dirt turnoff to the ranch, inadvertently following the smoky trail. The SUV slewed sideways around the first gentle turn of the driveway and once they cleared a copse of wildly flailing trees, they saw bright orange flames in the belly of the barn.

“Holy mother of God.” Josiah straightened out the Suburban and drove as close as he dared to the double doors before hitting the brakes. Ezra jumped out as the vehicle slid to a stop. No other cars were in sight – he hoped no one was here.

“Check the house!” Ezra yelled, running to the smoking structure. “I’ll let the horses out!”

Pony and Darlin’ frantically circled their outside paddocks trying to escape the inferno. Ezra could hear panicked calls of other horses on the far side of the barn.  He vaulted over the top rail of the turn-out pasture and reached the first corral gate as Darlin’ slammed against the fence. “Easy, girl,” Ezra said automatically as he worked the latch. When it was free, he threw the gate open and the grey horse bolted into the lower pasture.

Ezra heard a shout and looked up to see Buck’s truck lurch to a stop next to the Suburban. Both doors flew open and Chris and Buck leaped out. Ezra could hear sirens in the distance as he moved to Pony’s corral. The black danced in place, crowding the gate, eyes rolling as Ezra fell on the latch. The other two men ran around to the back and the other paddocks. When Pony sprang free, the other horses joined him and stampeded away. 

Ezra rapidly backed away from the smothering smoke. When it was clear enough to breathe, he stopped and searched for Buck and Chris and spotted them bent over, hands on knees, coughing hard, Ringo and Elvis cowering at their feet. 

The wind pushed the black smoke away from them as bright flames licked the walls. Hot, orange fingers shot from the loft window above, instantly engaging the roof beams. The three of them hacked dry, burning coughs. Ezra’s eyes stung, red from the swirling smoke. Forced back by the growing heat, the trio stumbled to a halt, shoulder to shoulder, away from the doomed structure. Approaching thunder rolled and the hairs on Ezra’s arms leaped to attention.

“Peso!” Chris gasped. “He didn’t come out!”

“He must be out already!” Buck rasped.

Chris quickly scanned the outer pasture where the horses milled. “I don’t see . . .”

He never finished his sentence. Josiah yelled and they turned to see him waving wildly. What he shouted froze their hearts. “Nathan’s car’s in back! I can’t find him!”

Ezra didn’t hear the rest – he was already running to Peso’s corral where a lone figure crawled from the barn, just visible underneath billowing smoke. Ezra sprinted through the open paddock gate and was immediately swathed in hot, gritty clouds. His eyes instantly teared up. Before his vision completely failed, he managed to grab two full handfuls of Nathan’s shirt. They both wheezed with effort, struggling to breathe, but the adrenaline surge in Ezra’s blood did the work for both of them. Together, they stumbled a safe distance away before falling.

Ezra sat up to check Nathan, sprawled across his legs, and realized his teammate had passed out, pinning him. Still fighting to draw a breath, Ezra looked to his other teammates through a crushing black tunnel narrowing his vision. What he saw turned his stomach with horrid realization.

The roaring pulse in his ears overshadowed fading senses and the acrid scent in his nostrils. He didn’t need to hear anything, though, because he could clearly read Chris Larabee’s lips as he screamed for Vin. Both Josiah and Buck held him tight, fighting to keep him from charging into the flames. Ezra used the last of his strength to turn his throbbing head and stare at the barn.

“Vin!”

The only reply to his haggard shout was rolling thunder. He welcomed the darkness when it finally came and spared his breaking heart.

            Rain poured from the sky in a crescendo of explosions and fire. Lightning lashed the heels of the downpour, quaking the surrounding earth . The first of the fire trucks slowed and stopped by the barn but the firefighters inside hesitated as the deluge did their job for them. The paramedic unit passed them and headed to Ezra and Nathan lying still on the ground.

            The futility of the firefighters’ intervention flew through Buck’s head as he fought to keep Chris from killing himself. His friend’s voice was raw from screaming and Buck’s ears rang. For as long as he lived, he knew he’d never forget the sound – Vin’s name would join Sarah’s and Adam’s as an echo in his mind. Desperately, he clung to Chris’ body.

            Josiah grunted when Chris managed to clip him with an elbow.

            “LET ME GO! VIN!”

            A loud hiss erupted from the barn as black steam carried on the wind. Bright orange still undulated in the barn, visible in the wall seams and framed by the loft window when the outside flames sputtered to death. A red and black tongue shot from Peso’s stall and was quickly killed by the downpour, the resulting black puff torn asunder and quickly followed by a dull roar when the roof tumbled inward. Chris’ hoarse scream, backed with a peal of thunder that carried the storm front eastward, tore painfully at Buck’s ragged heart.

            “Chris!” Buck begged. “Chris, stop! Stop!”

            “Vin’s in there! Let – me – go!” Chris threw his weight forward, dragging the two large agents several steps closer to the inferno. “VIN!”

            Buck’s throat clenched tight, strangling words. Josiah must have managed to trip their boss because the three of them crashed to the muddy ground, gasping. The volume of rain made it hard to see and grief made it impossible to breathe. Buck concentrated on keeping Chris’ face out of the mud lest he suffocate, but Buck wasn’t sure the man would realize he was dead if he did smother himself because he was already in Hell.

            Chris stilled from exhaustion as great, sobbing waves of sorrow rolled through him. Josiah, panting, sat back on his haunches but kept a large hand and a knee on their leader’s quivering back as he whispered empty platitudes.

            Buck rolled onto his back and let the cold rain numb his body. A sharp crack, followed by a heavy rumble announced the collapse of the barn walls. Buck winced and rolled his eyes toward the pile of blackened wood and wondered dumbly at the purpose of the firemen standing in a half- circle around the dying fire. A small, 10-year-old’s body would be tough to find in the remains - that much he knew for certain.

            Buck gasped at the last thought and the tears started, unchallenged, mixing bitter salt with the falling rain. Bright yellow firefighters’ turnouts trotted in his direction from the rescue rig while another pair headed toward Ezra and Nathan. 

            “Any injuries?” The coat collar flipped up over part of his mouth muffled the medic’s voice. He squatted next to them. Water dripped from the edge of his helmet.

            “The barn,” Buck choked. “Vin . . .”

            The medic paled and he keyed his radio. “Chief, there’s possibly someone in the structure.” The reply was scratchy. Buck didn’t try to make out the words. “Okay,” the medic replied and then turned back to the trio. “They’re looking. I’m sorry.”

            After the initial down pour and the leading edge of the storm had passed, the rain lessened and the wind died. The thunder faded as the front pushed east.

            The medic reached for Chris but Josiah grabbed his hand. “No need,” the profiler said quietly. “His injuries aren’t treatable.”

            The yellow-hooded head nodded briefly in understanding and he wisely rose and backed off. After a moment, he turned away and jogged toward his partner.

            This was unbelievable. Unimaginable. Not fucking fair. Buck pinched the bridge of his nose and squeezed his eyes closed willing himself to fill that space once again for both Chris and JD. The very thought made his tears run heavier; could he do it again? In that place deep inside where Buck had always managed to find a spark of drive, he found nothing. The well was dry.

            Through the visceral sound of rainfall, Buck heard motion at his side. Visions of Chris storming his way through hot and soggy coals flashed in his mind’s eye. He forced his eyes open and ordered his body to sit up and found Chris mirroring his posture. Buck also saw a raw emptiness in his long-time friend’s eyes and it tore at his heart.

            When Chris struggled to stand, Josiah was there to help him and Buck was grateful; he wasn’t sure his own legs would hold him at the moment. Josiah moved in close, careful not to touch his boss but making it clear that he was there. Chris ignored him – his hollow eyes locked on the barn. Rain ran down his face unnoticed, his breathing was ragged and forced. Mud embraced him from head to toe and as he stood, knees locked and his body stiff, nature’s shower slowly peeled it away.

            Chris stood for a long minute before finally taking a wobbly step. Buck tiredly pushed to his feet and tried to find that buried reserve of strength.

            “Chris!” Ezra’s voice was sodden with rain, faint to their ears and peppered with coughs. “Chris, wait!”

            Buck turned toward the normally dapper agent plowing his way through the mud. It struck him as odd; Ezra should have been either swearing bullets or choking on tears like the rest of them. But he was . . . bright. Buck frowned at the conundrum.

            Huffing and choking on rainwater, Ezra slogged his way to Chris’ side, intercepting him halfway to the barn. Curiosity piqued, Buck lengthened his stride to catch up.

            “Mr. Larabee, Vin is fine! Do you hear me? Chris? Vin’s fine!”

            Buck slid to a stop, grabbed the soaked Loro Piana coat sleeve and yanked Ezra away from Chris. “What the hell are you saying, Ezra?”

            Ezra jerked his arm away and managed a glare at the taller agent. “I said, Vin’s fine. Mr. Jackson said that Vin got away on Peso. He is uninjured and has Mr. Jackson’s cell phone.”

            Chris stiffened and he slowly turned to Ezra, green eyes glowing. Buck wasn’t sure if he was angry or happy. He grabbed Chris’ shoulders. “You hear that? Vin’s alive! Chris! He’s fine!’

            “Who did this?” Chris growled, turning to Buck. “I want ‘em flayed and salted!” He turned back to Ezra and grabbed the scruff of his neck, giving him a shake. “WHERE ARE THEY?”

            “I arrived at this travesty at the same time you did! Unhand me!” Ezra shrugged off Chris’ hand and their lean leader strode toward Nathan with a snarl, pulling out his cell phone as he moved. Josiah jogged to catch up.

            “Damn, Ezra, that’s good news.” Buck wiped his face and glanced upward, surprised that it was raining. “How’s Nathan?”

            Ezra’s posture rounded as he relaxed. “Our healer will be fine when he sees a doctor. He was shot in the leg, attained burned hair follicles and inhaled some smoke, but is otherwise relatively unscathed.” He pulled his coat together with a muttered curse. When he saw Buck looking in Chris’ direction, Ezra followed his gaze.

            Chris’ determined push stopped at Nathan’s side and he fit himself between medics. As he spoke, Chris poked at his cell phone with growing irritation. Buck counted four attempts to connect with Vin and on the fifth unsuccessful try he was sure Chris would crush the phone in his fist as he snapped it closed. Even at this distance, Buck could see the tremble of his long time friend’s hands as he wrenched the phone open for a sixth try.

            “It appears that Master Tanner is not picking up,” Ezra said quietly.

            Buck swore softly and scratched his scalp. “Let’s see if Nathan knows where he went. If Vin’s bein’ followed I think the hounds of Hell will soon be on their heels.”

            Ezra used an absurdly wet handkerchief from his jacket pocket to swipe at the trail of mud running down his forehead. “I almost feel sorry for the responsible miscreants,” he said as he followed his teammate.

 CHAPTER SIX

            Every ounce of Vin’s concentration was on the trail ahead. Even though the unrelenting rain washed away every vestige of a discernable path he was able to guide Peso by the characteristics of the trees. Deeply hidden memories rose as a road map in his mind’s eye – the tree with two trunks; the one with a barn owl family in residence; the one that looked like a scarecrow because of a vague face in the bark’s pattern and two spindly arm-like branches that portrayed an “Oh No!” posture.

              Forever seemed to pass before his vague goal finally materialized before him   in the form of a sign that proclaimed his arrival onto reservation land. Vin fleetingly recalled the first time he’d seen the sign and how he’d asked Chris what it meant. “Real Indians live here?” he remember saying. Chris chuckled as the rode by the sign. “Yep. We’ll probably run into one of ‘em soon enough.”

                Vin was both thrilled and worried when he learned that Larabee land adjoined Indian land. He’d learned that the occupants were very good neighbors and had even befriended a slightly older boy name Chanu. In his prior life with Chris, he and Chanu often crossed paths with the young Indian on the trails winding through these hills.

            Vin shivered. He still clutched Nathan’s jacket against his chest in a wet wad. Reining Peso over the imaginary line separating the properties Vin was driven by a suddenly realized hope to run into Chanu. Vin had never seen the heart of the reservation or any of its structures so he pointed Peso’s nose toward where he thought the middle of the land would sit even thought Nathan told him to go west.

The wind eventually died, taking with it the sting of raindrops. Although the rain itself thinned to sporadic sprinkles, hanging drops that broke free from the branches overhead caused showers that smelled strongly of the forest.

Peso walked through the trees at a comfortable rhythm; ears twitching with a calm curiosity that helped ease Vin’s worries about Nathan. He ceased twitching with each fat drop or wet leaf that fell on him. Both of them were soaked to the skin but only Vin shivered, chilled by shock that seemed to grow worse as the surge of panic receded. He hunched his shoulders and drew his arms and the jacket tighter against his body in an effort to control his shaking. Peso proceeded calmly forward for several minutes before his ears suddenly pricked forward and his pace faltered.

            Vin frowned and peered suspiciously between Peso’s ears, wondering if he should rein to a stop. Peso seemed curious more than upset so Vin let him continue. He gripped the slippery, wet reins tighter. Finally rounding the tight fairy circle of a tree family, Vin saw a roughly assembled lean-to fashioned with branches and leaves protecting a faded yellow dome tent. Peso stopped a few yards from the tent when the door flap fluttered. The flap edge separated with the sound of a zipper and Chanu stuck his head out. He eyes widened with surprise and then he broke into a bright smiled.

            “Vin!” he cried. “What are you doing out here? You’re riding in that storm?”

            Since Vin’s teeth chattered uncontrollably all he could do was nod.

            “You look pretty cold.” Chanu slipped from the small tent and shrugged his coat snugly close. He tilted his head as he studied the boy. “You okay?”

            Automatically, Vin nodded but then he felt the burn of held-off tears and inhaled a sob as he shook his head instead. Chanu came to him, talking softly to Peso at first and then focused on Vin upon reaching his left knee. Taking the rein in his hand, Chanu searched Vin’s face. “What happened?”

            “I . . . I need t’ find Chris,” Vin stuttered through icy lips and hot tears. “Nathan . . . shot . . .” Unable to continue, he sobbed.

            “What? Shot?” Chanu rested his other hand on Vin’s thigh to prevent him from falling off the slick black. “I’ll help you home . . .”

            “No!” Vin managed. He sucked in a pair of breaths to control the tears. “I need to talk t’ Chris first. I need t’ find him . . .” He tried to turn Peso away but Chanu gripped the rein harder.

            “Vin, you’re freezing. Take my coat. It’s dry.” He released Peso long enough to slip off his coat and took up the rein again as he handed it up. Vin took it and pulled the coat on, releasing Nathan’s jacket.  Chanu caught it. “Where you gonna go if you don’t go home?”

            Vin though about that for a few seconds as he worked to control his tears. “I. I don’t know. Uncle Nathan needs help.” The warmth of Chanu’s jacket thawed him a little and he reached for Nathan’s jacket, remembering the cell phone. When he pulled it out and turned it on, nothing happened. He started to cry again as he poked numb fingers frantically on the numbers.

            Chanu noticed and took the phone from him and examined it. “I think it’s broken because it got wet. Mr. Larabee isn’t home?”

            Vin shook his head and pulled the warm coat tighter, working to control his tears. “Only Uncle Nathan’s at home and he’s hurt.”

            The Indian boy’s forehead furrowed as he thought. “Well, the phone won’t work. The reception here isn’t good anyway. Maybe if the battery dries it’ll work. That worked for my cousin once.” He separated the battery from the phone and put them in his shirt pocket. “Come on, let’s get to Grand dad’s place. It’s the closest. We can dry the phone in the oven.” Chanu released the rein and returned to the tent. When he came out again, he had on a long duster that had seen better days. “It sheds water pretty good,” he said as he buttoned it up. “Go over to that rock ‘n I’ll get up behind ya.”

            Vin maneuvered Peso to a large boulder and Chanu slipped onto the horse’s back. Peso’s ears flicked rearward with the extra weight and he clearly looked  unhappy.

            “Best not touch ‘em with your feet,” Vin warned. “He’s likely to dump both of us.”

            When Chanu chuckled Vin felt a pulse of warm air on his neck. His new passenger found a handhold on the belt loops of his jeans. “That way,” Chanu pointed out. “There’s a path ‘tween those two trees.”

            Vin saw the trail and reined toward it. Peso felt oddly humped for a few strides and then settled down with the extra load. The closeness of Chanu’s body helped Vin to warm up and subsequently relax. He glanced up. When the storm front moved on it took the rain with it but left behind a layer of threatening clouds overhead that mirrored his dark anxiety.

            Weaving through the trees with Chanu’s soft directions Vin was glad his friend seemed at ease without conversation. Vin didn’t want talk – his mind was filled with chaotic thoughts. He wasn’t sure he could speak a coherent sentence and his throat was constricted and raw from crying.

Instinctively he knew that Faraday’s men shot Nathan; he’d seen enough of the man’s brutality to recognize the work and he worried for Chris. Had they been watching all this time? What were they going to do at the ranch? Why now? The thoughts that tumbled through his head finally formed one clear realization: Jesse was after him and because of that, it was too dangerous to be with Chris or any of the others; Nathan was proof of that. Vin’s teeth clenched and he pulled Peso to a stop.

“What?” Chanu queried.

“I can’t go back,” Vin said aloud, his voice gruff with emotion. “I don’t know what to do.”

After a few moments, Chanu spoke. “No one will find you out here. The rain covered your tracks. Grand dad can help,” he said. “He knows all about hidin’ in these woods. Anywhere on the rez, actually. He’s done it before.”

Chewing his lip in though, Vin tried to come up with any other option. There were none. “D’ya really think he’d help?”

Chanu shrugged. “I think so. Plus, he’s got a phone that works. Ain’t a cell phone.”

“Okay,” he whispered as he reined Peso to follow Chanu’s directions.

<<<<<<<M7/ATF/LB>>>>>>>

             "Give me your phone."

            Josiah handed his cell phone over to his boss without a word. In the time they had searched the ranch on foot Chris had killed his own phone's battery trying to contact Vin. It was understandable.

            The house yielded some clues and as well as some blood evidence. Nathan managed to hit one of his assailants and there was a red smear that confirmed it on the hallway wall. The boys' room, hall, kitchen and great room were currently off limits while technicians photographed and collected trace evidence.

            The property hummed with activity. The last of the firefighters loaded hose and cordoned off the remains of the barn. F.B.I. agents hovered around the evidence techs, who looked mildly exasperated at the interference. News crews, held at bay at the foot of the driveway, erected portable dish antennas for the upcoming news hour as sharply dressed reporters pushed the limits of the yellow warning tape. Well-dressed media liaisons from both the F.B.I. and A.T.F. huddled close and knocked heads just out of the reporters' hearing range. Director Travis stood near them, frowning in irritation. Mud dotted everyone following the wake of the hit-and-run storm.

            Chris swore softly and jammed Josiah's phone in his pocket. Josiah raised an eyebrow at Ezra as he approached. According to Travis, Josiah's sole job was to keep an eye on Chris so as long as there were functioning cell phones within his grasp he figured the job wouldn't be too difficult. Chris plucked the phone free once again and jabbed the keys.  Josiah quirked his mouth and turned to Ezra. “What news, brother?”

            "It looks like the goons parked their vehicle just off the road beyond your driveway," Ezra informed them as he absently picked at his ruffled hair. "Unfortunately, but not unexpectedly, the rain obliterated any useable footprints or tire tracks. Your neighbor across the street, Mr. Yosemite, recalls a dark sedan."

            "Not much to go on," Josiah mused. The two of them spared a quick glance to Larabee when he growled at the phone in his hand. "They managed to disable the house alarm system. Buck's checking on the company employees."

            "What is the word on our esteemed medic?"

            "Raine met Nate at the hospital. He went directly into surgery to repair some muscle damage but should recover."

            Chris' hand radio came to life. "Agent Larabee, there's a man here with some saddles?"

            "Let 'em through," he snapped. Pocketing the phone again he motioned for Josiah and Ezra to follow. " Yosemite 's here with some tack."

            "Chris," Josiah said when he realized his job just became more complicated. "Perhaps you need to stay here . . ."

            "Vin won't come back here, not without me at least." Chris waved at an old, red pickup truck crawling up the drive, directing it to the gate of the turnout pasture where the horses milled. "He's holed up. I know places to check. You two see what Buck's found and take over. He needs to get JD settled. And keep me updated on Nathan. If he remembers anything more, call me. No one comes here – it’s not safe."

            With that said, their leader turned his back to them and joined Yosemite at the truck. Ezra and Josiah slowed and then stopped as Chris out-paced them.

            "I think we have been summarily dismissed," Ezra said. Josiah noticed that his teammate was incapable of standing still - he shifted constantly, tugging and picking at his damp clothing with an annoyed frown.

            "We all need some dry clothes." Josiah scratched his still damp scalp. "I'll update Travis and we'll go. I recognize a futile effort when I see one - Chris is unstoppable."

            Ezra stilled as he watched Chris catch Pony. "I feel for any immoveable objects he may encounter."

            "Amen to that."

             Chris had Pony saddled in a matter of minutes even though the animal defied his owner at every turn. Still wary, the horse was not happy about leaving the security of his herd and taxed Chris’ patience to its limit. When the agent finally swung into the saddle, Pony resigned to the inevitable and settled. His ears cocked sharply backward waiting any commands.

            “Thanks, Yosemite ,” Chris said as Pony spun on his quarters with a touch of the reins. He headed to Travis, who watched him approach with a frown. “Orrin, I’ll be in touch. I know a few places to check.”

            “I’m as disturbed about this as much as you are, Chris,” the Director noted. “That boy needs protection. We’ll talk further when you find him.”

            Chris nodded sharply. Pony impatiently worked his mouth on the bit and pranced in place, anticipating action. When Chris wheeled him around, the black launched into a choppy lope toward the trees.

            Once out of sight of the barn, Pony settled into a steady trot. Chris scanned the ground as he guided the horse along a lazy, zig-zag course, hoping to find a sign of Peso’s tracks. The downpour, though, managed to wipe out any trace of a trail so Chris started thinking about Vin’s possible destinations. Nathan told the boy to call Travis, so finding a place with a good signal could take him up the nearest peak or down along the road. Figuring he’d avoid people and the road, Chris pointed Pony toward the lake trail which would eventually rise into cell range.

            It didn’t feel right, though. Vin would go into hiding first, at least for awhile. But where? Sunset Caves, maybe? The quickest route crossed through the reservation and for some reason it seemed right. Pony shook his head and flicked his ears at the change in plans when Chris pressed him into a faster pace.

            When Chris noted the sign marking the boundary of reservation land, a feeling of satisfaction blossomed with the discovery of fresh horse tracks in the soften clay. Several minutes later he spotted a lean-to and tent, as well as an additional set of boot prints. Small prints, he noted, and relaxed knowing that Vin found company. He followed the trail easily along its muddy path, wending through trees and brush at an even pace.

            Pony’s ears pricked forward as they exited the trees. There, tied next to a lone, faded brown trailer, was Peso. The gelding whinnied a greeting and Chris’ heart raced with joy. There was no need to guide Pony – he made a beeline to his stable mate who managed to look happy and perturbed at the same time. Chris pulled Pony to a stop at the small porch and leaped from the saddle. “Vin!”

            The trailer door flew open and a blur of boy descended the three steps before Chris hit the ground. Vin charged into his arms and Chris pulled him in tight. He couldn’t speak or even think; the warmth of Vin’s body against his own was all he needed for the time being.

            Chris crouched and buried his cheek in Vin’s soft hair, working to ease his trembling. “It’s okay. You’re safe. Everything’s okay,” Chris murmured softly. He finally felt the desperate clinging loosen a bit and pulled back just far enough to see the tear-stained face. He brushed back Vin’s hair with a rough palm and assessed his son. “Are you all right? Are you hurt?”

            Vin shook his head and sniffled. “Nathan?” he whispered.

            “He’ll be fine. He’s at the hospital with Raine.” Motion in the corner of his eye caused Chris to pull Vin close and automatically reach for the gun tucked away at his hip. When his eyes locked on two people at the top of the stairs, he aborted the motion. “Chanu?” he said, flicking his gaze to the old man behind the boy. “Kojay.”

            “Hello, Chris.” Kojay stood behind his grandson with a hand on each of the boy’s shoulders, silver hair shimmering in the dull light The man’s eyes were deep brown and mesmerizing, radiating a calm that eased Chris’ heart.  “I am glad you are here. The boys were telling me a story.”

            Chris snorted and rose with Vin riding his hip. “I don’t doubt that.”

            “Please, come in. Vin needs to keep warm.”

            “Thanks.”

            Vin didn’t utter any manner of disagreement for the situation and clung tightly to Chris as he climbed the stairs and entered the trailer.

            “I’ll see to your horses,” Chanu said, disappearing outside.

            The inside of the trailer was comfortably warm in both temperature and atmosphere. Mellow shades of earthy orange, dusty green and burnt red reflected from the rugs and artwork scattered comfortably around the small interior. The aroma of peppermint and chocolate drifted from the kitchen space where a variety of ceramic mugs formed a loose circle on a small able.

            “We were warming up with some hot chocolate. Would you like some?” Kojay moved into the kitchen and got another mug from the cabinet without waiting for an answer.

            Chris sat at the table and settled Vin on his lap. “Sounds good, thanks.”

            Vin leaned against his chest. “It’s got mint in it. It’s good,” his son said softly.

            Chris kissed the top of his boy’s head. “It does smell good. Here,” he reached toward the nearest abandoned mug. “This one yours?” Vin twisted his head around, looked at the mugs and nodded. Chris pulled it closer.

            Kojay’s unremarkable actions in the kitchen and the quiet of the room allowed the pair to gather their wits. By the time the old Indian handed Chris his mug and sat across from them, Vin was recovered enough to sit up and reclaim his drink. When Kojay spoke his voice was scratchy and soft and most importantly, calming.

            “Vin tells an intriguing tale,” he began, cradling the ceramic cup in his hands. The kindness in Kojay’s eyes kept Chris grounded. “May I ask what your plans are from here, Mr. Larabee?”

            “To keep Vin safe.” Vin glanced back at his father’s face with a tiny, nervous smile. Chris pulled him closer. “Find a safe place until we hunt down . . .” he felt Vin stiffen and Chris softened his tone. “Until we find the men responsible for today.”

            Kojay’s quiet demeanor encouraged Chris to speak and organize his thoughts in an unthreatening way for Vin. For a man accused of only speaking three words a day, the allotment for this day seemed endless as he recounted what they knew up to this point. Chris spoke without pause, each minute increasing the relaxed slump in Vin’s posture. Chanu returned at some point and fell asleep on the nearby small couch as Chris aired it all - every fact, every innuendo and every need.

            Regrettably, no matter how his thoughts ranged, the path always returned to Vin. Since every clue they had lead nowhere, they needed more information. Orrin was right - they needed to know what his boy saw at the Faraday compound.

            The realization flared as quiet desperation in Chris’ eyes when he finally fell silent and met Kojay’s solemn gaze. He felt as if he were contemplating throwing his son to the wolves.

            “So examining Vin’s memories might help?”

            Chris nodded as he unconsciously ran his hand through Vin’s unruly hair. The boy was nestled deeply against Chris’ chest, silent and on the edge sleep. “I hate having to even consider it,” he replied. Chris ducked his head just enough to meet Vin’s trusting look given under heavy eyelids. “He’s been through so much.”

            “Vin?” Kojay said. Vin roused and turned wide, blue eyes his way. “Do you want to tell what you know?”

            “No.” The raspy voice was barely a whisper. Chris ran a hand down his back and he snuggled closer. “I . . . I don’t know. I don’t want anyone to get hurt. I don’t want . . .” Vin ran out of words for the moment.

            “What is it you do want, little one?”

            “I just want ta forget. Why can’t I just forget everything?” Vin’s fingers became active, picking nervously at Chris’ shirt front as his voice became tight. His chin dropped. “I don’t want to be scared anymore.”

            That did it for Chris; it was enough to confirm that their bond wasn’t what it once was. He gathered Vin close and started to rise, his mouth a tight line.

            “Wait,” Kojay said extending a hand, palm down. “I may be able to help.”

            “How?” Chris growled. “Can you make all this magically disappear?”

            Kojay drew his arms together and settled deep into the kitchen chair with a calm demeanor that now irritated Chris. Weathered lines that mapped the elder Indian’s life on his face framed unusually clear eyes – eyes that radiated warmth and wisdom. “No, and I would not want to. Memories are what make us who we are. It would be wrong to deny them.”

            “Even if they’re painful? Or unfair? Or so far beyond the realm of what’s normal?”

            “All I am saying is that hiding from one’s memories can deny the spirit.”

            Chris frowned, not sure how to take that. There was a beat of silence as he turned the idea over in his mind. “So,” he uttered darkly. “How is it you think you can help, then?”

            “For Vin to explore his memories safely, he needs a guide. You are already his protector in this time, that much is clear.” The greyed elder nodded at the relaxed boy in Chris’ lap. “You can do the same in past times. That way, he can examine his memories knowing you are there to keep him safe. There will be no fear. Isn’t that what he needs? Isn’t that what he wants?”

            ‘Yes.’

            The reply came into Chris’ mind through the bond they shared from the beginning. It was a mystical thing that could not be rationally explained, and it was something they both trusted since their eyes first met, but since Vin’s return, it seemed – frayed. Chris realized then that he’d pinpointed the cause of his continual unease and the reason he felt that Vin wasn’t healing. He looked down and locked eyes with his soul mate, knowing instantly that Vin wanted this.

            “What do we do?” Chris asked, keeping the visual connection with Vin and noting the deep weariness that had no place in the eyes of a 10-year-old child.  “Do you want to do this?”

            “Yes.” Vin’s reply was sure.

            “Okay, then.” Chris pushed back his son’s thick hair and held his gaze. “Let’s do this.”

            The chair scraped the floor as Kojay rose. “It will take a little time to gather what is needed.” Chris nodded and figured it was a good time to tell the others that he’d found Vin. When he pulled out his cell phone, Kojay paused then pointed a knobby finger at it. “The air is open and free to anyone.” Then he turned and shoved an old, rotary-dial phone on the kitchen counter toward Chris. “Use this.”

            Chris hesitated calling the old man on his paranoia; he was right. Chris looked back at the small device in his hand and realized how the ease of convenience had dulled his sensibilities. Not only could a conversation be easily intercepted, the GPS capabilities of a cell phone could pinpoint their exact location. Now, Chris knew better than to underestimate Faraday. Vin’s life depended on it.

            Accepting that technology could work against them, Chris removed the battery. It was time to go back to basics. He lifted the chipped and worn receiver from Kojay’s phone and dialed Travis’ office.

CHAPTER SEVEN

             Matthew Larabee was usually a patient man, but the unknowns of this situation chafed the raw ends of his nerves. Buck’s clipped and brief message to come to the Federal building left no room for discussion; the urgency in the normally good-natured man’s voice was enough for Matt to accept without question.

            Time passed agonizingly slowly without any further information while they waited in the team’s empty office. JD entertained himself well enough on Buck’s computer, especially when either he or Claire sat with him, but as the hours passed Matt noted the boy’s growing edginess. Vin could detect another person’s emotional state with a glance but the more self-absorbed JD usually took a little longer. When he subconsciously did pick up the stress of a situation, the detection presented as whininess.

            “Where’s Da?” JD finally asked, looking tentative. “I’m gonna call him.”

            “No, honey,” Claire said calmly, intercepting his tiny hand when it reached for the desk phone. “He said he’d call.”

            Well, not exactly, but Matt excused the small lie.

            “But I’m bored! When’s the movie? Where’s Vin? What’s for dinner?” JD swung his feet as he sat, his right foot connecting with the desk’s side with each arc. Bang. Bang. Bang.

            “I know, honey, but something came up. He didn’t tell us what but he said to wait here. That’s all we know.”

            “But we’ll be late!” Bang. Bang. “I’m hungry!”          

            Claire stood and took his hand. “Come on,” she said with extraordinary patience as she helped him off the chair. “Let’s go find a vending machine.”

            “I don’t wanna . . .”

            JD’s tirade cut off when a pair of agents stepped into the office. “Hello!” he chirped, all smiles. He pointed at the leading man. “I know you!”

            “Well, hello yourself, JD,” the older agent said cheerily. “Are these your grandparents?”

            “Yep!” He pointed a pudgy finger. “This is gramma and that’s grampa.”

            “Matt Larabee and my wife Claire,” Matt clarified as he offered his hand. At the same time, he worked to ignore his alarm at the agents’ arrival.

            “Chris’ parents. Nice to meet you both. I’m Agent McKellen and this is Agent Boise. You can call me Steve. Director Travis asked us to escort you to his office.” 

            “That’s Billy’s grampa,” JD said. “Is Billy here?”

            “No, he’s not. Sorry about that, JD.” Steve grinned and ruffled JD’s dark hair. “How about I let you push the buttons on the elevator?”

            “Okay!” JD broke free from Claire’s grip and bolted for the door. The four adults followed.

            “What’s going on?” Matt asked quietly. It didn’t escape his notice that the other agent that trailed behind visually swept their surroundings as they moved along the hallway. Claire stepped up the pace to keep JD in sight and McKellen extended his stride to keep up. “I thought Chris was going to meet us here. Something’s happened, hasn’t it?”

            The agent looked apologetic. “I’m sorry, Mr. Larabee, but I really don’t know what’s going on myself. I was just told to get you upstairs.”

            That information did little to soothe Matt’s nerves. He was grateful that he and his wife worked so well together in stressful situations; having Chris as their son had certainly forced them to be that way.

            Matt grinned to himself with that thought, remembering how the strength of his son’s character was clear from the day he was born. The horrible time that immediately followed Sarah’s and Adam’s death was the only time he and his wife were “disconnected” from their son. Vin was the one to bridge that gap and Matt’s eyes burned with the memory, thankful again for the boy’s gift of just being himself. Worry arose in his heart.

            “Here we are.” Agent McKellen indicated the outer door to Travis’ office. He and Boise flanked the doorway as the three family members entered. Steve closed the door behind them.

            JD, holding Claire’s hand, looked expectantly around and broke into a huge smile when he saw Mrs. Clark, Travis’ secretary. “Hi, Miss Barbara!” he chirped. “Here’s my gramma and grampa!”

            Mrs. Clark beamed back at the boy. “Hello, JD! Hello Mr. and Mrs. Larabee.” She reached into a drawer and pulled out a large zip-lock bag full of crayons and a stack of coloring books. “Here, why don’t you color something for me while Mr. Travis speaks with your grandparents? They’ll be right in there. You’ve been in Mr. Travis’ office before, haven’t you?”

            “Yep! He’s got a big window,” JD said, a bit of reluctance in his tone. Matt realized that the small boy, too, felt the tense air that enveloped this unexpected visit. Mrs. Clark clucked and fussed over the boy as she got him settled beside her at the desk. She glanced up and told Matt and Claire to go on in to the office when JD was finally involved with the books.

            Claire’s eyes rounded with anxiety and she took Matt’s hand in a firm grip. “She’s used up the last of her cool,” Matt figured. He cleared his throat, assured JD that they would be right back then pushed the door open, trying not to feel like he was lining up for a firing squad.

            “Matt, Claire.” Orrin Travis stood as they entered and waved at JD through the open door. When the boy returned to his picture at Mrs. Clark’s urging, the Assistant Director rose and closed the door. As he did so, Matt noticed streaks of dried mud marring Travis’ dress pants and the distressed state of his shoes. The sight of it fueled Matt’s alarm. Travis motioned for them to sit down and, noting Matt’s observation, brushed some of the dried mud from his knees as he sat. “I know you must be worried,” he started, sitting up and giving them his full attention.

            “Yes,” Claire said. “What’s happened? Are Vin and Christopher all right?”

            “Yes. I’ve just returned from his ranch. Let me catch you up.” He briefed them on the day’s events, keeping his voice low and calm. Claire clutched her husband’s arm as the story unfolded and gasped at the news of the barn fire. Matt felt her tremble.

            “Chris and Vin are together now at an undisclosed location. The team and I all agree it’s for the best until we know whom we can trust. There will be no cell phone usage – it’s too easily monitored. My offices have been swept for listening devices but that’s only a temporary reprieve. If someone in the building is dirty, and I have no doubt there is someone, any of the lines coming in are suspect.”

            “So how will you communicate? Can we talk to them?” Claire asked.

            Travis’ smile lacked any mirth. “Looks like it’s back to the old days,” he said. “Pay phones and encrypted messages. Fortunately, there’re a few of us that remember those days.”

            Matt grinned. “I know Morse code,” he joked.

            Claire snorted and unwound a little, leaning back in her chair. Travis chuckled. “Good to know. It may come in handy.” He got serious again and leaned forward onto his desk, hands clasped together. “Vin will be put into protective custody as soon as I can arrange it. We will try to accommodate all of you but I can’t guarantee anything at this point. Only myself and Team 7 are need-to-know. I anticipate that you will feel left out at times, and for that I am sorry, but it’s the way it has to be for the time being. I hope you understand.”

            “All we care about is Vin and JD’s safety,” Matt said with Claire nodding in agreement as he spoke. “And we want to help along those lines.”

            “I am leaving those details up to Chris and Buck. For now, I’d like you to stay with JD, here, until we have a plan put together. Chris and Vin will stay right where they are for now. Agent Jackson is out of action for the moment so Buck, Ezra and Josiah will be pretty busy. I’m glad you’re here for JD.”

            “So are we.” Matt squeezed his wife’s hand and grinned at her. She reciprocated with a shaky smile.

            “Now, here are a few basics on living under the radar,” Travis said as he began the Larabee’s education on how to be invisible.

 <<<<<<<M7/ATF/LB>>>>>>>

             While he spoke to Travis, Vin grew heavy in Chris’ lap and finally succumbed to sleep. Curled slightly into himself, Vin’s ear was firmly against Chris’ chest and one hand loosely gripped the front of his father’s shirt. The other hand - the one he favored from time to time – was cautiously tucked close to his body. Chris wondered if any pain was real or remembered.

            Realizing any phone lines into Travis’ office held the possibility of being bugged or monitored Chris managed to reach his boss through the building’s public line in the lobby. Tracing any calls to or from that number would be a nightmare. They quickly set up another conference time for later in the evening. Avoiding technology was going to make things difficult.

            When Chris mentioned Kojay’s offer about becoming a guide in an effort to not only calm Vin, but to get information, Travis brought up many good points.

            “This isn’t hypnosis, is it?” He asked. “Chris, if you do this, be very careful. You know the risks surrounding the power of suggestion. Do not interfere with Vin’s memory; that’s the quickest way to get any of his statements thrown out if we try to use it in court. You know that. Remember back in the ‘80’s, all those ‘false memories’ implanted in those preschool children accusing their caretakers of Satanic rituals? You’re walking a fine line.”

            Chris assured Travis that he would stop anything that looked like it would go that way. He was reluctant to refuse something Vin obviously wanted or pass on a chance to correct their frayed bond.

            Travis was right. It would be a fine line to tread. He agreed that if they were to explore any of Vin’s memories with hypnosis, it would be in the presence of Dr. Lowrey and the District Attorney.

            Vin roused when Chanu entered the trailer. He and Kojay had been outside preparing a site for the “spiritual re-connection” as the elder called it. There was mention of a sweat lodge and Chris grinned as a story Josiah once told him flashed through his mind.

            Always a willing explorer into the spirituality of other cultures, the team’s profiler had experienced a sweat lodge once. All Chris recalled was that it involved incense, nudity, questionable libations, lots of sweat and a surprise visit by a Catholic elementary school field trip. Chris couldn’t recall the details but the mental picture he’d formed at the time still scarred his brain.

            Vin tilted his chin upward and frowned at him, blinking sleepily. “What’re y’ laughing at?” he rasped.

            “Remind me to tell you a story about Josiah’s sweat lodge experience,” he answered as he brushed Vin’s hair from his eyes. “Right now it looks like Kojay’s ready for us.”

            Vin exhaled a deep breath and nodded, and then slipped from Chris’ lap. Taking his son’s hand, they headed to the trailer door and followed Chanu outside where the moisture thickened air was heavy with the earthy scent of woods. The sky was alive with shifting clouds but the drizzling rain had stopped and the wind capricious, yet light. They crossed the muddied grass in front of the trailer and entered a stand of trees lining a worn path.

            “I took the horses to our neighbor’s barn. They’re dry and fed.”

            “Thank you, Chanu. You’ve been a great help and we appreciate it.”

            “You’re welcome.”

            Beyond the trees, the trail cut along the face of a gentle, brushy slope. They followed the sweeping curve of the hill as the trail angled downward and passed through stand of trees. Once clear, they saw a dome-shaped structure perched on the bare top of a lofty hill. As they drew closer, Chris saw that it was made of tightly laced branches. Smoke drifted lazily from a hole in the center of the roof and the door was a faded blanket nailed across the doorway’s header. Stacks of leafy branches stood to one side of the doorway and three buckets of water made a line on the other side.

            Chanu told them to remove their shirts and then gave each of them a pine bough. The chill caused a rash of goose bumps on both his and Vin’s arms. “It is warm inside,” Chanu explained, gathering their clothes. “I will be out here.” He held the blanket aside and Vin brushed past Chris to enter first.

            Chris was surprised by the high humidity inside. He’d expected it to be like an old Vegas casino with several feet of dry, choking smoke hanging from the ceiling. Instead, the damp fog smelled of pine, rosemary and other rich vegetation and was constantly in motion. Kojay lazily fanned the glowing embers in the center of the room with his pine fan, causing the smoke to ebb and flow. The hole in the ceiling, as well as a window cut in one side, allowed fresh air, warmed by the hot smoke, to circulate.

The view through the rough-cut window centered on the highest peak of the mountain range across the green valley spread below. Rocks circled the fire pit and held the embers’ warmth and hissed when Kojay sprinkled water on them to release steam. It was surreal and Chris felt instantly transported to another era.

            Vin sank to the ground with a relieved-sounding sigh, crossed his legs and moved as close to the embers as he could. Chris settled beside him, taking a moment to allow his tense muscles to stretch and relax.

            Kojay, sitting across from them, indicated that they should wave their fans, and close their eyes. He spoke lowly and continuously, describing how to fan properly and increase focus through rhythm thus becoming aware of the connection between their bodies and the world that surrounded them. This connection, once opened, allowed their inner spirit to reach out and touch the spirits of other living things.

            Momentarily distracted, Chris was sure he heard the voice of Obi Wan Kenobi in his head explaining how the Force connected everything, and squelched a laugh. Kojay’s verbal litany paused. Chris cracked open one eyelid and saw the Indian’s dark eyes sparkling at him.

            “It is not so different.”

                Startled, Chris snapped both eyes open and stared at Kojay, whose voice he’d just heard in his head. Smiling, the old man’s eyes slipped shut. Vin giggled. Chris looked over and saw that his son’s eyelids remained closed. After his heart quieted Chris sighed in resignation and shut his eyes again “You’re laughing at me, aren’t you?” he thought.

            “I’m laughing with you,” Vin replied, repeating Buck’s often used phrase.

            “Nobody likes a smart aleck,” Chris answered jokingly.

            “What about Buck?”

                Chris snorted and he heard Vin giggle again. “Ya got me there.”

            Kojay cleared his throat. “If you two will allow me to continue?”

            “Sorry.”

            “Sorry.”

            Kojay waited until his guests settled down and their fan action fell into synch before guiding them through the steps that brought heightened awareness. Chris found Kojay’s voice mesmerizing and as the minutes passed, the stress of the day’s events gradually seeped from his body. Eventually, Chris was so physically relaxed, he felt like he was floating and drifted along with Kojay’s soothing cadence as if it was a marked trail. On the outside he figured he looked asleep, but in reality, he was acutely aware of every detail around him; it was what he expected an out-of-body experience would feel like.

            With Kojay’s rhythmic step-by-step coaching, each sense sharpened and cleared. He heard vehicles on a roadway miles away, smelled the damp earth outside through the scented smoke inside and he could taste each individual flavor of that smoke. His skin prickled with the press of the air that surrounded him. And finally, Chris saw the golden thread of his bond with Vin woven tightly through all of it, tying everything together and causing it all to make sense.

            With that focus, he “saw” their bond become stronger. The warmth he felt from it was electric and energizing, causing him to inhale a deep breath and open his eyes.       

            Chris blinked and looked to Vin. He wasn’t sure where the tired, scared and wary boy from earlier went, but he was certainly thrilled to see this happy, secure Vin beaming at him once again with clear, shining eyes.

            When he finally broke their gaze, Chris was shocked to see that it was dark outside and that not minutes, but hours had passed. He felt rested. Vin’s stomach growled.

Kojay uttered a raspy chuckle and started to rise. “Come. We are finished here. Chanu has prepared a meal and then you need to contact your boss man.”

            Their elderly host pushed to his feet, his knees cracking like popcorn. Once standing, he waved in the direction of the exit. Chris found their shirts hanging just outside the door. As he worked the buttons, Chris tried to understand what just happened.

Kojay read his mood. “I was merely a visitor today because your connection was open for a while,” the old man said, “and I understand the nature of such things. Outside of this exercise, I do not share what you have between you. Guard it carefully, my friends, and use it as a guide wire to find each other when you are lost. It is a rare and beautiful thing.”

            Vin found Chris’ hand and squeezed it in silent agreement.

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            Buck discovered that it was tougher than he expected to find a payphone since the cell phone revolution. What made it harder still was the active nature of his son.

            “Da!” JD hollered from the ball pit as Buck stepped into the McDonald’s Playplace. The boy’s grinning head floated on the top of a sea of primary colored plastic balls. “I found a quarter!”

            Matt chuckled from where he sat next to his wife at a hard, plastic, French-fry covered table. Claire also smiled at Buck but her worry showed plainly in her expression. Buck dropped down beside them.

            “Nothing yet?” Matt asked quietly.

            “Not yet.” Buck glanced at his wrist watch. “We’ll connect soon. Try not to worry.”        

            Since his return from the ranch, Buck had called Kojay’s phone every hour from a public pay phone. Finding one within visual distance of a busy McDonalds’ was lucky, but JD was growing bored with the place. After connecting with Chris and working out a plan, they could move but for now, ensuring that they were surrounded by people was the best he could do. So far, Faraday’s minions seemed to avoid public confrontation and were solely focused on Vin alone, but that could change at any time and the agent was not about to take any chances with his odd family.

            “I’ll try again in a half-hour.” Buck patted Claire’s hand. “They’re fine where they are.”

            JD spent a majority of that time in Buck’s lap, whining and asking for Vin. When Kojay finally picked up on his next try, Buck’s relief made him sag against the wall.

            “Buck?” Chris sounded as tired as Buck felt.

            “Damn, Chris, it’s good to hear your voice. Vin okay?”

            “Yeah, we’re good. Listen, I thought of a place we can hole up. Remember that old place at the east end of the reservation? Near the small lake?”

            A vague vision of a remote, tumble-down cabin came to mind. “You mean that old hunting lodge?”

            “Yeah. It’s not easily accessible and as far as I know, it’s not in County records. I tried to find it once.”

            Buck rubbed his tired eyes. “I remember the place. We’d need horses to get there.”

            “Taken care of. Come onto the reservation and Kojay will set everyone up.”

            Buck’s cell phone vibrated in his pocket. He pulled it out and checked the number, surprised to see that it was Travis. “Hold on, Chris,” he said, and then he flipped the cell open. “Yes?” he answered, a feeling of dread stabbing his gut.

            “Faraday’s escaped.” Travis, too, sounded weary. Buck swore softly and repeated the message to Chris. Travis continued, his voice clipped. “Two U.S. Marshals were killed and an internal investigation is already in motion. This wasn’t anywhere near subtle.”

            “Faraday’s desperate. He knows this could be his final play,” Buck added after relaying the news to Chris. “He’s tapping deep into his connections.”

            “And if he gets away this time, we’ll never find him.” Chris’ angry desperation was clear through the phone line.

            “We need to play that final card,” Travis said mysteriously. “The possibility we discussed when Chris and I last spoke.”

Buck didn’t know what the man meant but when he repeated it to Chris, the message was obviously clear because his friend snapped, “Tell him to arrange it. Where I said, Buck.” And then the phone was dead at his ear.

Wilmington hung up the payphone and walked quickly toward McDonald’s as he spoke to Travis on the cell. “We need to move fast. I’ll get the rest of the boys together.”

“My part will take a little time,” the Assistant Director said. “Meet me tomorrow morning, 0900, in front of Mary’s work. It’s a busy street. There will be four of us.”

“Sounds like a plan.” They disconnected just as Buck reached the Playplace. JD sprang into his arms.

“Can we go now?” JD whined. “I wanna see Vin.”

Buck forced a laugh and found it easier to pull off than expected. “Never thought I’d see the day you begged to leave Mickey D’s! Get your shoes, little britches, and we’re outta here.”

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            Slouched in the back seat of an unremarkable coupe with heavily tinted windows, a small man in the remains of a rumpled suit dug out his cell phone from a pile of drive-through coffee cups, empty energy drink cans and cigarette butts piled on the seat. Wiping grease from his fingers, he flipped the phone open and dialed in a number from memory. The recipient picked up after one ring.

“It’s Casselman. I think I have a lead.” The caller tried to sound like a force to be reckoned with but the shake in his voice betrayed him. “If I tell you, you’ll let her go? That’s the deal, right?” He listened for a few seconds and then panic bloomed. He threw the Federal issue listening device aside and sat up, rigid. “Look, my job is at stake, too, you asshole! Tell your boss that once I’ve done this I’m out! I’ve paid my dues!” Sweating, he rubbed his forehead worriedly and trembled.

Squeezing his eyes shut, he let out a soft string of profanity and then gulped. “Look, hey, I’m sorry, okay? Don’t hurt her!” Tears clouded his eyes and he gripped the small phone until his knuckles turned white. “Okay, okay. Wilmington ’s going to meet Travis sometime between now and nine o’clock tomorrow morning. From there, it sounds like they’re hooking up with Larabee. It’s a sure bet the kid’s with Larabee.” He listened and rubbed his forehead, fighting back tears. “Yeah, yeah. I’ll stay on him but only until you get someone to replace me. Wilmington knows me from the office so if he spots me . . .” he trailed off. “Fine. Let me talk to her first?”

His grip relaxed a little and he took in a pair of breaths to try and gentle his tone. Upon hearing the voice on the other end, he broke into a distraught smile and the tears he fought to hold back unleashed. “Hi, honey. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. You just do what they say, alright? Okay? I know you’re scared. I’ll get you out of there soon, I promise you. Becky? Wait! Becky? You fucking asshole! Don’t hurt her! Don’t . . .”

Realizing the connection was cut, Casselman snapped the phone shut and threw it at the car’s dashboard. Sniffing to control his tears, he crawled to the front seat, buckled in and wiped at his eyes. “What the hell have I done?” he whispered desperately as he twisted the car’s key. “I’ve signed on with the devil. I’m fucked.”

Before pulling away from the curb, Agent Casselman centered on his A.T.F. training and focused on the job ahead – following his friend and fellow agent Buck Wilmington directly to Vin Tanner.

For his own sanity, he didn’t think any further than that.

CHAPTER EIGHT

             Yellow light from a camping lantern flickered in the shadows of the simple barn as Chris finished shortening the stirrups of the borrowed saddled on Peso’s back. The unruly black stood patiently enough for that, but when Chris tightened the cinch one last time the horse pinned his ears and angled his head slightly toward Chris’ rump.

            “Do it and you’re dog food,” Chris muttered lowly.

            “Dad!” Vin protested as he reached up and stroked the horse’s nose. Then he spoke seriously to the animal. “He didn’t mean it. Honest. He loves you, too.”

            Chris raised an eyebrow at the smug, smiling face of his boy and the prickly Peso, whose eyes melted into an unbelievably sappy gaze under Vin’s ministrations. Chris could only shake his head in amazement and then turned to check Pony’s cinch. Kojay and Chanu approached, carrying stuffed saddle bags and sleeping gear.

            “Thanks, Kojay,” Chris said as he accepted the items. “I don’t know how to thank you for all of this. I hope none of this comes down on you.”

            “We can take care of ourselves,” Kojay replied sagely. “The trail to the cabin is faint but Chanu knows it well. There is enough moon for a safe journey.”

            “Couldn’t be in better hands, I’m sure. And thanks again for the use of your smoke lodge tomorrow. You be sure to keep clear of the place. It’s safer if none of your people know what’s going on.”

            Chanu helped Vin tie down the gear and then swung up on his own pinto while Vin climbed onto Peso. Then, they waited patiently for Chris.

            “Thanks again for everything.” Chris clasped Kojay in a forearm grip for a moment and then mounted Pony.

            “Let us know where your path leads,” Kojay said as they reined away. When the trio disappeared into the forest, he turned around and whistled a short bird’s call. A boy of Chanu’s age trotted into view from the trees near the trailer. “Are they assembled?” Kojay asked the boy.

            “Yes, grandfather.”

            “Then let’s not keep them waiting.”  

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            When he threw the truck into park and cut the engine next to the old barn, the first thing that Buck noticed was the silence. He had spent the night in a lower end hotel on a noisy street along with JD, Claire and Matt, while Ezra and Josiah alternated taking watch. The night had seemed unnaturally long and Buck was very tired.

            Apparently, so was JD. It had taken a while for the boy to go quietly along with the plan to lay low after leaving McDonald’s. As soon as the feeling of adventure wore off, the boy’s anxiety started to show and he had slept restlessly and asked about Vin throughout the night.

            Right now, the boy and his grandparents slept soundly in the rear seats of Chris’ new truck, not even stirring during the drive on the packed-dirt road that threaded through the reservation. Chris’ parents were certainly troopers, the weary agent thought with a sigh. Buck exited the truck and quietly closed the door, giving his passengers a few seconds more rest.

            He glanced around. Although he didn’t see anyone, Buck knew that they had been under scrutiny by the cautious reservation dwellers and decided to let them choose the time to make their presence known. For the moment, he felt safe enough from Faraday and his ilk, so he leaned against the truck’s fender and let the quiet settle over him.

            The peacefulness lasted a little over a minute before a swirl of dust announced the arrival of Josiah’s sturdy Suburban as it maneuvered to park behind him. By the time the dust settled around the vehicles, Josiah and Ezra were out and scanning the area. Knowing how tired they all were, Buck couldn’t help but chuckle at Ezra. Somehow, the dapper agent had managed to refresh himself in the two hours since Buck last saw him. He never knew jeans could hold a crease that sharp. Josiah, on the other hand, looked like Buck felt.

            Buck saw Josiah nod in the direction of the old barn and he turned, spotting a pair of boys in the doorway. He recognized Chanu and raised a hand in greeting. The boy replied in kind and then the pair disappeared into the structure.  Buck turned back to the Suburban and waited as his remaining teammates opened the rear doors. Travis and the boys’ psychologist, Dr. Will Lowery, exited first, followed by two others. Buck recognized the lead D.A. investigator Bryce Patterson - but the last man was unknown to him.

            Travis approached and extended his arm, shaking Buck’s hand with a firm grip. The Assistant Director tilted his head in the direction of the other men.

            “You know everyone, except Dr. Steiger.”

            Buck studied the man for a moment. Steiger was an older man with receding gray hair and a wiry, athletic build. The agent guessed his age to be somewhere in his late 50’s, and amusedly thought that he looked exactly like a psychiatrist.

            “Roger Steiger,” the man said, as he shook Buck’s hand.

            “Dr. Steiger is one of the few court recognized experts in hypnosis therapy,” Travis explained. “We were very lucky that he was available.”

            “Well, Doc, I hope you’ve been on a horse before,” Buck greeted.

            “I’d say it’s been about twenty years,” Steiger replied. “Isn’t it like riding a bicycle with attitude?”

            Buck laughed, instantly liking the man. By the time he greeted the others, Buck’s passengers had awakened and emerged, sleep rumpled, from the truck. He scooped JD into his arms as the boy rubbed his eyes. “Ready to ride?”

            JD blinked a few times, looked around, and was instantly awake. “Chanu!” he squealed, pointing at the young Indian leading three horses from the barn. “Which one’s mine?”

            “Sorry, Little Bit,” Buck said, ruffling JD’s hair. “You’re ridin’ with me. We need to move fast.”

            JD frowned at first, but the thought of going fast obviously overruled his desire to have his own horse. Buck let him sit in the saddle while he spoke to Chanu. Afterward, Chanu and his cousin quickly matched the men to their mounts, murmuring quiet instructions and adjusting stirrups all the while. Buck made sure everyone’s cell phones were turned off to shut down any GPS capabilities.

            Patterson looked decidedly uncomfortable in the saddle with the telltale slumped shoulders and heels-up posture of a first-time rider. Travis and Steiger looked a little better, but it was Dr. Will who surprised Buck.

            “Hey, Doc,” Buck said brightly as he reined his horse alongside. “You’ve ridden before?”

            “Grew up on a farm in the mid-West,” Dr. Will said with a smile. “Had a mare called Babe that all us kids rode, usually bareback. We were all over the place on that horse.” He looked to JD. “Hey, JD, have any tips? It has been awhile.”

            JD, clinging tightly to Buck’s belt, chirped, “Just cover your nose when you eat our dust!”

            While most of them laughed, Patterson only offered a sickly smile as he clutched the saddle horn. Chuckling, Josiah fell in beside him and offered suggestions. Buck waited for Chanu to mount up and when he did, the agent reined in behind him and the others followed in a loose line, with Ezra bringing up the rear. 

<<<<<<<M7/ATF/LB>>>>>>>  

            Chris stretched, feeling the pull of sore muscles the down length of his back. Although he and Vin had slept through the night like logs on the cabin’s narrow cots, waking up brought a painful reminder of the previous day’s events that had brought them there. Was it only yesterday he’d watched his barn burn to the ground? Now, it wasn’t too far past dawn and he and Vin were following Chanu back to the smoke lodge. Once they cleared the trees and the structure was within sight, Chanu reined his pinto onto another trail and departed to fetch the rest of Chris’ team.

            Chris turned and smiled at Vin, happy to see that his son looked rested. They were both comfortable here, but that didn’t help ease the trepidation Chris felt when he thought about what they were about to do. Did he really want to know what lurked in Vin’s memories? Would it really help his son to walk through them? Could he really help Vin?

            The two of them nudged their mounts forward and found a suitable spot to secure them. Chris’ muscles complained once more when he swung his leg over to dismount and he let out a short hiss.

            “I’ll take care of ‘em,” Vin offered softly, taking Pony’s reins.

            While Vin tied up the horses, Chris walked around the smoke lodge to loosen up and get his nervousness under control; when he focused on it, that’s when he felt the strength of his bond to Vin. He glanced up and caught Vin smiling at him and his boy’s confidence in him chased away the anxiety. Together, they would get through this. Together, they could get through anything.

            By the time Chanu returned with the others Chris and Vin had arranged the interior of the lodge to fit at least five adults and Vin. They wouldn’t be firing up the smoke, but, instead, chose this location not only because it was familiar and comfortable for Vin, but very remote and difficult to find without a guide. The cabin would remain elusive to all but “family”.

            Vin appeared at his side and took his hand as the others approached, trailing from the woods behind Chanu in a loose and broken line. Orrin carefully scanned the area, sitting comfortably aback a lean roan while Matt and Claire looked relaxed and happy. That made Chris smile. Dr. Lowery – looking surprisingly comfortable on his chestnut – chatted with a grey-haired man Chris assumed was the Federal shrink. Ezra was ever alert as he brought up the rear and Josiah was talking to a dandy he recognized as Patterson who wasn’t at all thrilled about the transportation. Neither was the dark bay he rode, if the pinned ears were any indication. Chris chuffed - the man wore khaki Dockers and dress shoes, for Christ’s sake!

            Chris could “feel” Vin’s amusement when Patterson’s knees wobbled as soon as his feet hit the ground. Josiah’s quick grab for his arm prevented a face plant, which made Vin giggle aloud. Chris felt his own cheek twitch with a grin, which grew wider when JD slipped down from behind Buck and charged in their direction.

            Vin broke ranks and the two tumbled together in a brotherly heap just ahead of Buck, who dropped down and pulled the boys into a noisy, raucous hug. Buck’s boisterous greeting had lightened an atmosphere that could have been so much darker. Even Patterson managed a weak grin as he limped beside Josiah. Chris made his way to his parents and Claire wrapped her arms around him.

            “Oh, Christopher, I’m so happy to see you,” she said in a quavering voice. She stood back and put her hand on his cheek. “And Vin seems just fine.”

            “Yeah, he’s good, mom.” He kissed her cheek and turned to his dad. “I see you remember how to steer a horse.”

            “It felt good,” Matt said, giving Chris a quick hug. “And I guess we’re continuing onward?”

            “It’s probably better that you wait at the cabin with JD. I’m not sure how long this will take.”

            “He’s been a little soldier but I know he’s worried. Buck’s told him just enough to explain why we’re doing this, but I’m not sure he understands all the . . . possibilities.” Claire’s eyes told Chris that she did know all the possibilities. He was very sorry she was in this position, but was also so very grateful she was here.

            “Well, the sooner we get to it, the sooner it’s over.” Chris excused himself and veered off to give JD a welcoming embrace before approaching Travis.

            The boys had about a half hour of vigorous play with their fathers before taking the next step. Deciding that Ezra would accompany Matt, Claire and JD to the cabin, with Chanu as their guide, the remaining group saw them off with promises to see them later. Dr. Will then moved in with Dr. Steiger and met up with Chris while Buck entertained Vin a little longer.

            “This is a very different experience for me but from what Dr. Lowery’s told me, I think it’s the best we can do for Vin,” Dr. Steiger started, putting Chris a bit more at ease. “Is Vin going to be comfortable with the number of witnesses we have here?”

            “I’ve explained it to him. I think he’ll be all right, especially with Dr. Lowery here. And as for the others,” Chris locked eyes with Steiger, “he trusts my judgment.” Chris decided not to mention the strong thread that connected him with Vin. He was sure it was something Dr. Lowery didn’t completely understand, even after all this time.

            Vin’s therapist asked for Chris’ attention. “I want to make clear what my job is here, Chris,” Dr. Lowery began. “My concern is solely for Vin. There’s a good chance he will encounter memories other than what Director Travis and you are looking for. I want you, especially, to be aware of this; it could be very difficult. I intend to make sure they do what’s in Vin’s best interest.” Dr. Lowery sought and held Chris’ concerned glare. “You need to be prepared for how . . . sensitive . . . this could become. You need to be Vin’s stable influence the entire time.”

            Chris was grudgingly impressed with both Dr. Steiger’s silence and Dr. Lowery’s directness. The two doctors had obviously used the riding time to hammer out some guidelines and limits, and he was again grateful for Dr. Will’s professional dedication; Chris was sure the man never expected to be out in the woods on horseback at this moment, but he definitely knew his job and steadfastly maintained his professionalism. Chris nodded his acknowledgement.    

            Breaking the heavy silence, Dr. Steiger met Chris’ stormy eyes. “How about you introduce me to the young man of the moment?” Steiger obviously knew who Vin’s protector was and he didn’t intend to cross any lines. Chris was grudgingly satisfied.

            Buck, noting the shift of bodies, brought Vin over and left with Travis and Patterson to find their spots in the smoke lodge. Chris and Dr. Will then introduced Vin to the man that would start the boy down what could be an ugly trail.

            Chris stood aside, but well within Vin’s line of sight, and quietly watched the interaction. At first, Vin was visibly tense but when Dr. Steiger crouched down to the boy’s eye level, Chris focused on their bond, using it to ease his son to a less stressed state. What convinced Vin to continue was when the older man asked his permission to do so. Chris felt a flash of surprise, followed quickly by boosted confidence.

            Chris smiled at that. They all knew this interview was inevitable - it was the very purpose of this collection of individuals. It never occurred to Vin, though, that he had a choice to decline and Chris felt that wonder clearly through their link.

            In response to the query, Vin shuffled sideways and reached for his father’s hand. Once physically and emotionally connected with his “rock”, Vin nodded and whispered, “I’m ready.”

            Satisfied, Chris led Vin into the lodge, followed closely by the doctors, while Josiah stood guard just outside the door.

            Chris sat first, Buck on one side while Vin settled on the other. Dr. Will flanked the boy. Dr. Steiger placed himself across from Vin, keeping about three feet between them. Travis and Patterson tucked themselves back in a corner along with recorders and notepads - any questions were to be written down and asked by Dr. Steiger alone. It was essential to have a record of the session for the court.

            Steiger nodded to Travis and the recordings began.

            “This is Dr. Roger Steiger and this is my first session with Vincent ‘Vin’ Michael Tanner. Also present are Vin’s regular therapist, Dr. William Lowery, Vin’s father, Agent Christopher Larabee, Agent Buck Wilmington, A.T.F. Assistant Director Orrin Travis and Denver District Attorney Investigator Bryce Patterson. Well, Vin, would you say it was a little cozy in here?”

            “A little,” Vin replied timidly. He reached for Chris’ hand and pulled it into his lap.

            “Are you ready?”

            “Yes.”

            “Well, then, let’s get started.” Dr. Steiger ran through a list of easy questions about Vin’s age, address and home life, designed to make him less nervous. Chris could feel Vin slowly unwind, but an edge of apprehension was clearly apparent; it wasn’t an unusual response with the presence of so many adults outside his home, though. Chris did his best to reassure his son with his touch and thoughts.

            Once the doctor recognized that Vin was in a receptive state, Steiger began a relaxation routine that wasn’t unlike their session with Kojay. Chris felt himself fall easily into the now familiar state and Vin followed along, but Chris fell short of the depth he’d gone with Kojay. Vin, however, slipped further along, their bond keeping the boy grounded. It was like mental rappelling, Chris reasoned. Soon, his son’s eyes closed and his hand became slack within his father’s.

            “So, Vin, let’s go back to the accident in your mind only. Remember, these are only memories and they can’t hurt you. It’s like looking at a picture book.”

            “Okay.” Chris wondered if Orrin’s recorder would pick up the soft voice.

            “Do you remember the accident?”

            “No. Just a noise. A loud bang.”

            “Look back to the next thing you remember and tell me what it is.”

            “It’s dark.” Barely audible, Vin’s voice was a rough whisper. “It’s . . . dark an’ . . . an’ it smells funny.”

            “What’s it smell like, Vin?”

            “Bad. Like dirty socks. An’ a doctor’s office.” Vin scowled. In any other situation, the expression would have been funny. Chris glanced at Buck and saw the same grim expression that probably mirrored his own.

            “Are you outside or inside?”

            “Inside.” Vin shifted, but he still felt relaxed to Chris. “It’s dark.”

            “Are there any lights you can turn on?”

            Vin shrugged slightly. “Yes . . . no.”

            “Let me ask that another way, Vin. Is there a light switch near you?”

            “Yes, but I can’t . . . reach . . . it.”  Rather than looking upset, Chris thought he looked puzzled. “I can’t . . . move.”

            “Do you hear anything?” Chris appreciated Dr. Steiger’s deflection.

            “Voices. Harry’s talkin’ to someone.” Vin grew still and his voice dropped as if he didn’t want to be noticed. “He’s going to hurt me again.” He frowned, and the way his voice quivered set off every parental alarm in Chris’ head. If it wasn’t for Buck reaching over and grabbing his forearm, Chris would have swept Vin up and run far, far away.

            “How do you know that?”

            “I’m on my stomach and he gave me a shot. He always hurts me when I’m like that. I don’t like layin’ on my stomach. I can’t breathe when . . . he . . .” Vin's voice hitched.

            Chris glanced sharply at the Buck, recalling the incident involving Matt waking Vin on the couch - the boy had been on his stomach. Chris felt sick as he connected the dots just before a wash of terror, helplessness and shame nearly overwhelmed him; the impression of rape focused exquisitely and painfully clear and Chris gasped – Vin’s grip tightened on his hand.

            “Vin. It’s only a memory. No one can hurt you now. Understand?”

            How Dr. Steiger managed to keep his voice so level was beyond him as Chris fought to regain their previous calm. He squeezed his eyes shut and worked to control his breathing the way Kojay had taught him. The intense feelings of absolute fear and deep embarrassment that emanated from Vin were impossible to put aside; Chris could only accept them and although it wrenched his stomach to do so, it was the one way he found that he could get a grip on his emotions. He had to push aside his explosive mix of primal fury and profound sadness while letting the rest of it pour over him. It was akin to being doused with gasoline.

            Once done, once the tide ebbed, Chris was able to focus on that golden bond once more and build their strength. It seemed to take a lifetime, but once successful, he heard Vin sniff and then sigh in relief.

            Chris took a breath and opened his eyes, still a bit stunned, and glanced at Buck. Numb, he was saddened to see silver tears trickling down his friend’s cheeks. Buck released his grip on Chris’ forearm and only then did Chris feel the hot lines trailing from his own eyes. He absently scrubbed them away with his palm and took a shaky breath. He glanced up and saw Dr. Steiger give him a concerned, sideways look while Dr. Will was wholly focused on Vin's face.

            “Yeah,” Vin finally replied to Dr. Steiger’s question. Chris inhaled deeply and centered himself on the connection that bound them. Vin visibly relaxed at his side and Dr. Will looked relieved. Chris swallowed hard realizing it was his boy’s trust in him that made it possible to maintain their positions. When he glanced at Buck, he was sure the flicker of guilt he felt was visible in his eyes by the tight smile and the slight shake of the head that Buck gave him.

            “Can you hear what Harry’s talking about?” Dr. Steiger asked as if the delay never occurred.

            “No. They’re fuzzy. The shots make things sound fuzzy. I kicked him.”

            That made one corner of Chris’ mouth twitch and he heard Buck snort.

            “You’re safe here, Vin. No one can hurt you now. It's only a memory.”

            “I know,” he sighed. “My dad’s here t’ keep me safe,” he said with confidence. Buck nudged Chris at that.

            “How did you leave Harry’s house?”

            “Mr. Jesse took me.”

            “Mr. Jesse was alone?”

            “Yeah. I remember Mr. Jesse carrying me outside ‘cuz I was sleepy from th’ shot. It was cold when we got there and it smelled like hay. I woke up in Miss Grace’s house ‘n I could see outside.” The relief in that revelation was very clear and Vin’s body relaxed even more. So did Chris, grudgingly grateful to Miss Grace.

            "What do you see out of the window?"

            "Sky. Trees. A bird's nest. An owl." Chris smiled slightly. Vin continued. "Train cars. Trucks."

            "Train cars?" Dr. Steiger asked. "Is there a train close by?"

            Vin frowned. "No, just big boxes that look like train cars with no wheels in the yard. Mr. Jesse keeps stuff in 'em. I’ve seen ‘em on trains before. The trucks bring stuff in and take stuff away."

            "Big trucks?"

            "Yeah. With trailers. Like the ones that deliver stuff to Wal-Mart."

Buck chuckled softly.

            “What else do you see out of the window? Do you see cars?”

            Vin frowned. "Yeah." He shifted, suddenly uncomfortable and frowning. "Ain't supposed to look," he whispered.

            Chris felt the bond waver. “Vin?” he thought, watching how his son absently rubbed his arm. His left arm, Chris noted - the one that had been broken.

            "It's just a memory, Vin. Nothing here can hurt you."

"But I . . . I can't help it. It was right under my window. He always parked it there." Vin hugged his left arm close to his body and became absolutely still. Chris focused on the bond and mentally drew Vin back to him as he found his boy's hand again.

            "Vin, I want you to take a deep breath. It's only a memory. It can't hurt you."

            “Don’t leave me!”

            “Never, Vin. I will always be here. Always. You know that in your heart.”

            After a moment, Vin sighed, but the tight grip on Chris’ hand remained. “I know,” he said softly.

            "Now,” Dr. Steiger continued. “What was right under your window?"

            "The green car." Vin frowned again but this time, remained calm. "The one the red-haired man drives. It's right under my window. I can't help but see it. He’s the only one that parks there." He abandoned Chris’ hand and hugged his left arm across his narrow chest while Chris felt a rise in anxiety. "Jesse saw me lookin' 'n grabbed my arm . . ." Vin shuddered and his shoulders hunched.

            “It’s just a memory, Vin. Like in a photo album, it can’t hurt you.”

Vin’s body language tore at his heart and Chris fought to stay in control. He claimed Vin’s hand once again and used it to strengthen the visual picture of their connection. Eventually, Vin responded and the tension left his grip.

            The next words that came from his son shook Chris viscerally.

            "I heard it snap." It was an odd juxtaposition to hear the boy's words when he looked so relaxed. Vin’s hand slipped from Chris’ and he rubbed his forearm near the elbow, a perplexed expression washing over his face. "It hurt."

            Buck gripped Chris’ forearm again and he was sure there would be bruises. He heard his friend groan.

            "The car is green?"

            Chris again appreciated Dr. Steiger’s deflection.

            "Yeah. It has no top ‘n y’ can see the engine. It’s got silver stripes."

Dr. Steiger glanced at Patterson, who nodded encouragingly and handed over a note. The doctor read it and then handed it to Chris.

            "Vin, have you seen a car like it before?"

            A furrow of thought wedged between Vin’s eyebrows. "Yeah.”

            “Where?”

            “ At Dr . Will’s office."

            Surprised, Dr. Lowery cocked his head and scribbled a note.

            "Where at Dr. Will’s office? In the parking lot?"

            "No, in the toy box."

            The DA investigator wrote furiously and handed over another note. Chris managed to exchange some of his tension for curiosity.

            "Vin, do you think you would recognize the red-haired man if you saw him again?"

            The relaxed curve of Vin’s body immediately stiffened as an expression of fear overtook his features, catching Chris completely off guard. "No!" he cried softly, releasing Chris’ hand and hugging his arm to his body. His voice rose in pitch. "I'm not supposed to see! He'll hurt me!"

            Chris gasped and instinctively pulled Vin close, murmuring soothing words and stroked his hair. Vin trembled, and in the eye of Chris’ mind, he saw their bond shorten, bringing them close and separating them from the outside world, and drawing them into a safe cocoon. Vaguely, Chris heard Dr. Steiger’s voice in the background.

            "Okay, Vin, I want you to count from five to one. On one, you'll wake up and feel completely relaxed. Start counting. Five, four . . ."

            Vin’s slight body relaxed a little more with each number until he felt boneless in Chris’ embrace. When Dr. Steiger reached one, a whispered word warmed Chris’ ear. "Dad?"

            "You okay?" Chris asked lowly as he continued to rub Vin’s back.

            "Yeah." Vin pushed back and Chris let his arms fall away. His son looked around, appearing a bit dazed before finding Dr. Steiger. "Is it over?"

Dr. Steiger smiled and patted Vin’s knee. "All over. You did great, Vin. How do you feel?"

            “Fine.” Vin blinked and sought out Chris’ eyes. Chris saw questions milling around in his boy’s head; questions that would not be verbalized here in front of these men. He also knew that Vin wasn’t fine – he was worried.

            After reassuring Vin that everything went well, Dr. Steiger excused himself and followed Buck, Travis and Patterson outside. In the privacy of the lodge, Dr. Will moved closer and ducked his head to capture Vin’s attention.

            “Do you want to talk about anything? Do you remember what you told us?”

            Vin worked his fingers nervously and his gaze dropped. “I ‘member,” he said softly. “It was like a dream.”

            “Yes, that’s exactly what it’s like. A dream or a memory can’t hurt you, but the feelings you had at the time can confuse things. It’s hard to separate the feelings from the thoughts, isn’t it?”

            “Yeah.” He raised his chin a little and looked at Dr. Will through blond lashes.

            “If there are any feelings or other things you don’t think you can say out loud, you can write them in your journal, Vin.” The Doctor rubbed Vin’s leg in sympathy and then glanced at Chris before continuing. “I’m sure you know that they will want to look for that car in the toy box. Was it there the last time you were in my office?”

            Chris wrapped a protective arm around Vin’s shoulders as the boy nodded. “Yeah. I didn’t touch it.” He dropped his gaze again fiddled with the hem of his shirt. “Th’ car in the toy box is blue but it’s the same car. I remember.”

            “You did great, son.” Chris held Vin close as he spoke to Dr. Will. “Josiah will go back with you and look through the toy box. Thanks for being here. It’s been a great help.”

            Dr. Lowery stood and brushed off his jeans. “Unless things change, I’ll plan on seeing you next week at your regular time, okay, Vin?”

            Vin nodded and Chris knew they had taken the first steps along a difficult path.

 CHAPTER NINE

             Vin was quiet on the ride back to the cabin while Buck filled Chris in on the supplies the group had packed in. The twisty trail required some attention, but Chris managed to find their way back without any missteps.

            When they reined to a stop in front of the rustic structure, Chris took a few moments to study the area and evaluate their security. Buck dismounted and was immediately assaulted by a chattering JD, who managed to divide his substantial attention between his Da and Vin without pause. Matt leaned against the door frame, smiling.

            “Breathe, Li’l Bit!” Buck chuckled. JD paused long enough to sigh and roll his eyes before launching into his next block of information. Buck herded the two boys and two horses toward the hastily assembled lean-to and rope fence acting as both barn and corral.

            “I’ll check the perimeter,” Chris said, kneeing his mount forward. “I’ll be right back, Cowboy.”

            Vin managed a stress-free smile for his dad while JD demanded his attention regarding the evidence of mice in the cabin.

            When Chris rode past his father, Matt said, “Claire’s making lunch. We’re fine here.”

            Grateful, Chris gave a sharp nod and continued onward.

            The tree line was close to the cabin, the abundant crowns of various species sufficiently hiding the cabin from any aerial surveillance. The trees and hilly nature of the land rendered long-distance observation impossible. There was no road anywhere near their location, making horses or hiking the only way to get here. Chris knew he should be satisfied with the security the remote location offered, but he still felt uneasy. He stopped Pony to regroup mentally when a familiar form stepped from behind a wide tree trunk.

            Ezra brushed a piece of tree bark from his jacket sleeve. “After this ordeal has come to its conclusion, Mr. Larabee, I shall require vacation time in a populated, civilized location to re-obtain what our esteemed profiler refers to as my ‘balance’. Las Vegas , perhaps.”

            Chris chuffed and dismounted, automatically scanning the area as he joined his teammate. “I know a nice sweat lodge that may fit the bill.”

            Ezra rolled his eyes, reminding the team leader of JD. “Please. Although I do not discount the relaxing properties some may find in that venue, I require five-star accommodations surrounding it.”

            Chris chuckled.

            “You have returned sooner than I expected,” Ezra said. “I assume the meeting was successful?”

            “We’ll see. We may have a lead. Vin saw a car at Faraday’s compound.”

            “A car? How is that helpful?”

            Chris scrubbed his forehead. “Well, from the layout of the house and where Vin’s room was, this car had to go around the entire house to park where Vin could see it. We think the driver was parking out of sight from the main roadway.”

            Ezra frowned. “Any postulation as to why?”

            “Not sure. Either the car or the man was easily recognizable. Vin said the driver had red hair and the car looked like one of the toy cars in Dr. Will’s office toy box. Faraday was angry when he found out Vin saw the car.”

            There was obvious heat in the last of Chris’ words. Ezra looked at him expectantly, knowing instantly that there was more to the subject.

            Chris glanced at him and shook his head as he dropped his gaze. “Faraday broke Vin’s arm for looking at the car.”

            Ezra closed his eyes and tilted his head back. “Good Lord,” he breathed. “It’s no wonder the boy has nightmares.”

            “Yeah.” Chris found that he was unable to say any more as he tried to hold back welling fury. He wasn’t ready to share the other revelation brought forward at the “meeting”. After a few moments of silence, Chris turned and led his horse toward the makeshift barn. “I’ll relieve you after I grab a bite so you can get some lunch.”

            “Thank you. I will make one more circuit around the premises and meet you here then you may take your leave.”

            With a backward wave, Chris walked away and tried to recapture the sense of peace this place usually gave him. The horrifying thoughts and resulting emotions that swirled in his mind from Vin’s interview refused to go away and he again thought of Dr. Will’s warning:  “. . . those memories will surface at some time - probably when he starts to feel safe again - and you’ll have to be prepared.”

                Chris blew out a sharp breath of frustration. He was beginning to think he’d never be prepared.      The somewhat mindless chore of putting Pony up gave Chris the time he needed to get control of his roller coaster emotions and regain composure. Vin already had a blast of his father’s horror and Chris knew the boy was a bit shaken up both by the recovered memory and his father’s reaction. Chris had to make it clear that none of the past horrors were Vin’s fault and that he had been in a completely powerless position; Chris also admitted that he had to personally accept the fact that he was powerless, too. The latter part was his current problem.

            Chris inhaled deeply though his nose and he patted Pony’s long neck. Pony’s ears flicked before he shook his head and sidled up to Peso to steal a share of the scattered hay.

            Chris headed toward the tiny cabin and met his father at the front step. “I’m going to eat and then relieve Ezra. How are things here?”

            “Pretty subdued for those boys,” Matt said honestly. Like his son, he didn’t say much but the questions in his eyes were clear.

            “It wasn’t pleasant,” Chris said lowly, dragging his hand across his forehead. He found he couldn’t meet his father’s gaze because he was afraid of revealing too